Sep 04, 2011 - 8:58 am
It has been 15 months since I lost mu husband to brain cancer. Looking back it was such a nightmare for all of us. On occasion I go to the brain cancer discussion board...don't know why. Maybe it is to see if any new treatments have shown success. Did we miss something? When I read the struggles of those traveling the path we did while Terry was alive, I feel relieved that we are no longer there. The fear and anxiety with every MRI, every crisis that took us to the ER, watching this person who is the center of your world slip further away each day both mentally and physically. I feel so guilty. How can you love someone so much and take relief with his passing? Wonder when or if I will ever feel myself again.