Aug 23, 2011 - 2:18 pm
I've tried to be really supportive of her because I know how scary this can be for the caregivers, but she says I'm not doing enough, and that I'm not making enough effort to resolve the differences between her and my family. I'm really trying my best, but I have no idea if I'm "doing enough" or not.
My wife has even mentioned that I need to be more supportive or she might lose motivation to care for me. Then later she apologizes and says she's just scared, and asks for forgiveness, which I give her every time, but I feel trapped in the middle and surrounded by a lot of negativity and it's exhausting.
I love her, but I'm afraid of how her negativity and anger will impact my recovery. She seems so angry about how this effecting our/her life and future, but she doesn't seem to realize what's she's doing to me even though I've told her. I can't get her to counseling. I don't know what to do or who to talk to about this. If I tell my family they'll be mad and things will get worse. And things are going to get worse because we haven't even gotten to the treatment phase yet.
I've spoken to counsellors, but they just keep bringing up more counseling for us. I'm at a loss.