Aug 08, 2011 - 2:44 pm
I'm not sure if this is the place to get started on this topic, but you all have become my friends; and I'd rather have your support than the support of strangers.
When I was diagnosed with UPSC in March 2008, I stopped working. I am a freelance writer/editor, which for me is very intense work that requires total concentration; and I felt that I couldn't adequately perform my job with my mind elsewhere. Also, once chemo began, I couldn't get off the couch for almost two out of the three weeks between treatments. This had a terrible effect on my ability to meet deadlines, so I lost a bunch of clients. Disability was not an option because "theoretically" I should have been able to work. So...I dipped into my retirement savings and hoped for the best.
Now, I have picked up a few new clients but the money is nowhere near what I used to make. My expenses far outweigh my income, despite my now living a very spartan existence.
Today, I applied for food stamps; and I am having a hard time accepting this. How much of the life I had known has changed because of my cancer diagnosis?
I am having a pity party here, and I know that I should consider myself lucky in so many ways. Please accept my apologies.