Jul 08, 2011 - 1:05 pm
It was a long, hard battle which lasted for a little over a year. It's been a very emotional roller coaster, to say the least. Unfortunately my father succumbed to cancer early Thursday morning. His cancer originated in his right lung, but eventually spread to his other lung, esophagus, spine, brain, and liver. He ended up having a seizure Wednesday afternoon while sitting on our couch in the living room. He was rushed to the hospital where we spent the next 13 hours. He was given a lot of medication to help control the seizures, however these medications rendered him extremely incoherent and it almost seemed like he was in a constant daze. My father's final wish was to pass away at home where he's most comfortable. They released him at 1AM from the hospital and gave him a time limit of approx. 4 weeks. They got my father home and placed him on the hospital bed which is set up in our living room. We were going to start Hospice the next morning....
Before going to sleep on the couch beside his hospital bed, I kissed my father, told him how much I love him, and assured him I'll be sleeping next to him if he needed me. Although in a haze and incoherent, I saw his eyes shift over to mine and he made a slight noise, almost as to acknowledge my presence.
I fell asleep sometime between 2:30AM-3:00AM, and awoke at 8AM to find he had passed away.
To say I'm devastated and heartbroken is a complete understatement.
My father was such a lovable, kind, funny, intelligent man.
I didn't realize just how many lives my father touched until people in the neighborhood came over to express their sympathy and offer condolences.
He was certainly immensely loved and will be forever missed. I can only hope to be as wonderful and amazing a parent as he was (and my mother, who also passed away on a hospital bed in our living room 8 years ago from cancer).
Daddy...we fought a hard battle...be with mommy, forever in peace, my two loving angels. RIP, January 14th, 1950 - July 7th, 2011. I love you forever.