Eleven years ago my wife was diagnosed with soft tissue leiomyosarcoma. Her survival rate at that time was 14 percent. After eighteen major surgeries, many chemotherapies,many radiation treatments, and other treatments she is still alive and fighting.
After this last surgery on May 5th though I am begining to see the end because of the toll cancer has taken on her body and mind. She is getting tired of this fight and I am as a caregiver. I looked at the caregivers information on this website and I am exhibiting most of the negative behaviors. Perhaps I should have asked for help from family earlier instead of thinking we could do everything ourselves. I tend to feel better when I am at work and distracted but now I sometimes dread going home.
I do want to continue to be a good caregiver to my wife. We have been together for thirty-three years, since we were eighteen. The problem is that I am afraid of failing now because of the mental and physical toll this is now taking on me.