Jun 13, 2011 - 9:03 pm
Today has been such a hard day, Here we are about two weeks after We were told that my dad has about two months left. He seemed to be doing ok for the last week or so. Actually starting to eat and hold things down a little at a time, Yesterday I noticed he wasn't holding much down again. His espohagus is closed once again.
But with the chemo stopped and hospice started it seemed that he was making a little bit of progress, He even started being a little more perceptive to the "process" as we were told. Dad actually spoke with the chaplain from hospice on Friday, Actually said a prayer with him. *the first time i've even heard him speak of faith in 30 years*
My Dad is nearly full functioning from an outsiders view, still gets up and does things for himself, even goes in and will wash dishes from time to time. I've noticed he's sleeping more and more. I just figured he's tired, who wouldn't be for all he goes through.
Today He's been sick several times and sleeping nonstop. Im so sick of this rollercoaster where he's ok one minute and not the next, I want off please!!!!
Come to think of it he's brought up his time in the military.. He served in Vietnam, and does not speak of it due to how he was treated coming home with all the things that were said and done to the military men and women when they came home, He tells me of times they were hit thrown things at called all those nasty names such as "BabyKillers" ect. But now he speaks of it in the last week.
Im seriously wondering if he is dying much more quickly than it seems. Im scared even though I don't want him going through this anymore. I know that once he passes on He will be at peace and then My Mom and I can start the healing process of all this.
Anyone have any advice???