My Mom's left foot has been swollen off and on for the last week. The swelling seems to be getting a little worse and it is travelling a little up her leg, their is no pain and no redness. My Dad has called the gyn/oncologist twice and she seems unconcerned. This really p*sses me off. I think Mom needs to have an ultrasound.
I know a few have posted their mom's started to swell as they were getting really sick.
Mom is a very tiny 90lbs, yet she has maintained this weight since October. Today she offered me her summer wardrobe since it no longer fits. I did not and will not take it. I am worried she is waving the white flag. I want her to believe she will wear them again. I just said if i take all of her clothes then what will she wear next summer? Mom responded well i was saying you could borrow them.
I feel very defeated tonight :( I would like Mom to get a bit of good news. I want the damn doxil to work and mom to have a really wonderful summer. I want them to take out the tumor and tell mom it's not going to come back. I want to go for a bike ride and a long walk with Mom like we used to and to swim together. I want to bake cookies together, i want to have conversations that don't revolve around this damn disease. Mostly, I want mom to feel peace and happiness and to live to be an old woman.
I don't want to hear that this chemo didn't work either and now she has to try a fourth line treatment. If this disease has to take her then I want the angels to greet her while she is sleeping.
And for once i want God to listen to my prayers and to answer them for Mom and for all of you too.