Jun 05, 2011 - 8:43 am
I'm 20 and my mom passed away on April 18, 2011. We found out that she had stage 4 colon cancer, four years ago, and it had spread to her liver. Then in March of this year, we found out that it went to her brain. I quit work and college and temporarily moved back home to take care of her because my father was being an ass and was basically ignoring what was going on; he never treated me and my mom like he should've. My mom was my best friend, but now that she's gone, I feel so alone. My dad's family is basically drunk or high (including my father) and I refuse to be around that, and my mom's family tried to make a "pissing contest" about who would miss my mother more, and I don't want to put up with their 5 year old games. My boyfriend of 4 years has always been there for me, and he's known what I'm going through because he lost his father to cancer almost 3 years ago, but lately he's been distant. And my father doesn't want me in his life, because a year ago I told my mom something that he did. The only person I have left is my cousin, but he lives seven hours away and works over 50 hours a week, so we barely get to talk. I don't like feeling this alone. What do I do?