May 23, 2011 - 8:44 pm
It's hard to believe that in a few days I will have the one year anniversary of my husband's death. I'm not sure whether the year went fast or slow. In fact, looking back I have no recollection of the year passing, it just did. I made it through all of the firsts: graduations, birthdays, anniversaries, holidays...but, now the second round will begin. I can't see it getting any easier, although people say with time it does. I can say that I moved on without him, but continue to feel like I'm moving in a fog. It is something that is very hard to describe to anyone, even to my best friends who know me so well. I dread the anniversary date, in fact, the whole month of May has been very emotional; more so as the date approaches. I will be surrounded by friends and family that day, but now wonder if I should just crawl in bed with the covers over my head and wait for it to pass. Any advice on how to get through the day?