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I miss you, Dad

malaka1076
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Joined: May 2011

I lost my Dad 6 weeks ago to Esophageal cancer. I miss him so much, more and more everyday. My Dad was the best man I knew. At 34, I still felt like his little girl. He and I got along great, and he always listened. He never judged me. I am so much like him, and I am so proud to be his daughter.

Dad, I miss you more than words can ever say. There is not a moment that goes by that I dont think about you. I would give anything to have you back. I cant believe I have to go through life without you. I miss everything about you - your advice, our trips to the casino, your dry sense of humor, your intelligence & wisdom, cooking for you, making you dips, buying you honey mustard dressing, making fun of you with the computer, you correcting my grammar and spelling. You were the best man I ever knew and that will never change. I hope you are at peace and enjoying being with your family again. I cant wait to be with you again someday, I got a lot of **** to tell you! Give Baley a pat and bone for me. Love you.

neverquit
Posts: 221
Joined: Oct 2010

Malaka. I know how you feel as I lost my Dad to prostrate cancer 10/31/2001. My Dad was a great guy and all of us kids (6 of us) and grandkids (7 of them) loved him A LOT (still do, always will). I'll bet your Dad is as proud of you as you were of him.

I'll also bet that your Dad misses you too, but he wants you to be happy. Your Dad would be very sad to know that he is causing you great heartache. So, it's OK to miss your Dad, but try to stay focused on the good times you had with him. And now you can honor your Dad by living life to its fullest and finding the joy (for the both of you). Take care and hugs to you.

malaka1076
Posts: 3
Joined: May 2011

First, I am so sorry for the loss of your Dad. And thank you for the kind post. It came at the perfect time, as Im having a "moment" right now.
You are so right, he would NOT want me to be so upset all the time. He would want me to enjoy my life, just as he did. I am going to remember this...and work to smile about him more and not cry as much.

Thank you again, your reply means the world to me.
Hugs to you too!
~Melissa

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Hondo
Posts: 5446
Joined: Apr 2009

I am sorry to hear of the lost of your Dad but know this for sure he knew you loved him and that is the most importance thing to remember. I too almost lost the battle last year but from side effects of the cancer treatment. But somehow through pray I made it passed the low point and got some of my health back again and pulled out of it. I have two daughters who are always watching me; everything I do even what I eat, saying Dad that is not good for you or they are making me eat stuff I don’t like because it is good for me. But I know it is only because they love me and want what is best for me. What I tell them is someday I will pass on and no one except God knows when. Just remember me and tell my grandkids about me and I look forward to the day we will all be in Heaven.

I know your Dad loved you just as much as I love my daughters, just remember us and make sure our grandkids know who we are and what we were. Tell them stories about us and make them laugh, and when you are all alone remember your Dad and laugh about the good times and stories he told you when you were just a Kid.

Take care Melissa and continue to be a part of CSN.
Hondo

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Tina Blondek
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Joined: Nov 2009

Hello Malaka and welcome to our family. I was also a caregiver for my dad. He passed from EC with mets to the liver in March 2010. I too miss him dearly. But....I do not miss his decline in life. His horrible journey with cancer. His pain and suffering. If I could have him back, he would still have cancer. I do not want that. We will have to wait to see our dads again. We will, God has made us that promise. God never breaks his promises. Talk to your dad, he hears you. Write to your dad, he will read your thoughts. Start a journal. Keep in touch. We are always here for eachother.
Tina in Va

MsDai
Posts: 1
Joined: Dec 2011

I am really happy that I have found this post. I recently lost my Dad in Sept. He lost his battle with Liver cancer after an 8 year fight. Since he has passed, I feel so empty inside. Like most of you and I am a daddy's girl and will always be a daddys girl. So it means alot to know there are people out there in my shoes and going through the same motions I am currently going through.

I really like Tina's post because like her I would give anything to have him back but he would still have cancer and still be suffering and that's just not something I would want him to go through all over again even though he put up a great fight as I'm sure all of your fathers have.

I just want to say I send my prayers out to you all. And I'm glad I have these type of post to remind me I'm not alone (even though I feel like I am).

Lilllly
Posts: 16
Joined: May 2009

Im sorry to hear about your dad....and can understand where you are coming from. I lost my dad almost 3 months ago to stomach cancer. I'm engaged to be married next year, and can't believe my dad wont be there. I'm so proud to be my dad's daughter, and I know he's keeping an eye out for me. I know your dad is also keeping an eye out for you

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Kathy09
Posts: 99
Joined: Jun 2009

I read your post and could't belive how much it resembled me and my father. Let me tell you, it has been 12 years for me, I never forget. I hold the thought of seeing him again. I still get the blues over it.

fatim
Posts: 5
Joined: May 2013

Im faty from Rabta, Moroco..Its been almost one year i lost my dad..I miss him so much now..

this is the period he s ben suffering a lot from lung cancer ( hes had smoked a lot in the pas), and has suffered for four years. During this period last year, he was very sick and that were his last days of cancer fight..

June 12th ll be one year my dad left me.. I miss him everydayy, i miss talking to him. He was the one who understood me most ; life is so empty without himmmmmmmmm...

rlroth
Posts: 5
Joined: Jun 2013

Its been seven years and I miss my dad like it was yesterday. Every moment of everyday is filled with memorys of him. My dad was a doctor, he worked till he was 83, still seeing patients the day he closed his practice. I have three older brothers, all MD's.

My mom wanted a daughter so bad and one day my dad told her that he had a girl who is pregnant and can't keep the baby. A few months later my dad dilivered me. He brought my mom to the hospital and I became her little girl. When my dad was sick I was with him all the time. One year to the day of his retirement he died in my arms. He was the first to hold me, I was the last to hold him. Cancer stole my dad from our family.

My mom is still with us However, after my dad died she slipped into her own mind. She has Alzhimers. She knows who people are but her short turm memory is gone. I love her so much. Once in a while she looks at me and says I miss your dad, and my heart breaks for her.

I would like to say the pain goes away but really it just turns into exceptance.  My daughter is in pre med. Shes also getting married. I konw my dad is so proud of her. I just wish he was here. 

rlroth
Posts: 5
Joined: Jun 2013

Its been seven years and I miss my dad like it was yesterday. Every moment of everyday is filled with memorys of him. My dad was a doctor, he worked till he was 83, still seeing patients the day he closed his practice. I have three older brothers, all MD's.

My mom wanted a daughter so bad and one day my dad told her that he had a girl who is pregnant and can't keep the baby. A few months later my dad dilivered me. He brought my mom to the hospital and I became her little girl. When my dad was sick I was with him all the time. One year to the day of his retirement he died in my arms. He was the first to hold me, I was the last to hold him. Cancer stole my dad from our family.

My mom is still with us However, after my dad died she slipped into her own mind. She has Alzhimers. She knows who people are but her short turm memory is gone. I love her so much. Once in a while she looks at me and says I miss your dad, and my heart breaks for her.

I would like to say the pain goes away but really it just turns into exceptance.  My daughter is in pre med. Shes also getting married. I konw my dad is so proud of her. I just wish he was here. 

fatim
Posts: 5
Joined: May 2013

Im faty from Raat, Moroco..Its been almost one year i lost my dad..I miss him so much now..

this is the period he s ben suffering a lot from lung cancer ( hes had smoked a lot in the pas), and has suffered for four years. During this period last year, he was very sick and that were his last days of cancer fight..

June 12th ll be one year my dad left me.. I miss him everydayy, i miss talking to him. He was the one who understood me most ; life is so empty without himmmmmmmmm...

fatim
Posts: 5
Joined: May 2013

Im faty from Raat, Moroco..Its been almost one year i lost my dad..I miss him so much now..

this is the period he s ben suffering a lot from lung cancer ( hes had smoked a lot in the pas), and has suffered for four years. During this period last year, he was very sick and that were his last days of cancer fight..

June 12th ll be one year my dad left me.. I miss him everydayy, i miss talking to him. He was the one who understood me most ; life is so empty without himmmmmmmmm...

fatim
Posts: 5
Joined: May 2013

Im faty from Rabat, Moroco..Its been almost one year i lost my dad..I miss him so much now..

this is the period he s ben suffering a lot from lung cancer ( hes had smoked a lot in the pas), and has suffered for four years. During this period last year, he was very sick and that were his last days of cancer fight..

June 12th ll be one year my dad left me.. I miss him everydayy, i miss talking to him. He was the one who understood me most ; life is so empty without himmmmmmmmm...

fatim
Posts: 5
Joined: May 2013

Im faty from Rabat, Moroco..Its been almost one year i lost my dad..I miss him so much now.
This is the period he s ben suffering a lot from lung cancer ( he had smoked a lot in the pas), and has suffered for four years. During this period last year, he was very sick and that were his last days of cancer fight
June 12th ll be one year my dad left me.. I miss him everydayy, i miss talking to him. He was the one who understood me most ; life is so empty without himmmmmmmmm

JayAustralia
Posts: 1
Joined: Jun 2013

Hi Faty and everyone with your beautiful words of love for your fathers and how much we miss them... I am writing this as I have tears in my eyes... Faty I am thinking of everyone on this site but especially you at this moment ... Nearly a year ago you lost your dad and on the 18th it is a year since I also lost my dad from prostate cancer. My heart is breaking and I too feel like you remembering that this time last year was so tough for your dad and also my dad. I have also felt so lost without my dad and have been sad and pretty self destructive feeling like I have lost a part of me...... But I have seen awesome positive messages on this site tonight and I hope we can all slowly grow stronger ...... easier said than done ..... but I will try to adopt these attitudes ..... thank you for the messages from others to live with the wisdom of our dads - I find this so inspirational. I will light a candle for your dad  Faty here in Austalia on the 12th and can you light one for my dad Tom on the 18th? Please everyone feel free to write other dates birhtdays, last days or special days to light candles around the world for our dads!!

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