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I miss you, Dad
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May 12, 2011 - 1:58 pm
I lost my Dad 6 weeks ago to Esophageal cancer. I miss him so much, more and more everyday. My Dad was the best man I knew. At 34, I still felt like his little girl. He and I got along great, and he always listened. He never judged me. I am so much like him, and I am so proud to be his daughter. Dad, I miss you more than words can ever say. There is not a moment that goes by that I dont think about you. I would give anything to have you back. I cant believe I have to go through life without you. I miss everything about you - your advice, our trips to the casino, your dry sense of humor, your intelligence & wisdom, cooking for you, making you dips, buying you honey mustard dressing, making fun of you with the computer, you correcting my grammar and spelling. You were the best man I ever knew and that will never change. I hope you are at peace and enjoying being with your family again. I cant wait to be with you again someday, I got a lot of **** to tell you! Give Baley a pat and bone for me. Love you. |
Joined: Oct 2010
Malaka. I know how you feel as I lost my Dad to prostrate cancer 10/31/2001. My Dad was a great guy and all of us kids (6 of us) and grandkids (7 of them) loved him A LOT (still do, always will). I'll bet your Dad is as proud of you as you were of him.
I'll also bet that your Dad misses you too, but he wants you to be happy. Your Dad would be very sad to know that he is causing you great heartache. So, it's OK to miss your Dad, but try to stay focused on the good times you had with him. And now you can honor your Dad by living life to its fullest and finding the joy (for the both of you). Take care and hugs to you.
Joined: May 2011
First, I am so sorry for the loss of your Dad. And thank you for the kind post. It came at the perfect time, as Im having a "moment" right now.
You are so right, he would NOT want me to be so upset all the time. He would want me to enjoy my life, just as he did. I am going to remember this...and work to smile about him more and not cry as much.
Thank you again, your reply means the world to me.
Hugs to you too!
~Melissa
Joined: Apr 2009
I am sorry to hear of the lost of your Dad but know this for sure he knew you loved him and that is the most importance thing to remember. I too almost lost the battle last year but from side effects of the cancer treatment. But somehow through pray I made it passed the low point and got some of my health back again and pulled out of it. I have two daughters who are always watching me; everything I do even what I eat, saying Dad that is not good for you or they are making me eat stuff I don’t like because it is good for me. But I know it is only because they love me and want what is best for me. What I tell them is someday I will pass on and no one except God knows when. Just remember me and tell my grandkids about me and I look forward to the day we will all be in Heaven.
I know your Dad loved you just as much as I love my daughters, just remember us and make sure our grandkids know who we are and what we were. Tell them stories about us and make them laugh, and when you are all alone remember your Dad and laugh about the good times and stories he told you when you were just a Kid.
Take care Melissa and continue to be a part of CSN.
Hondo
Joined: Nov 2009
Hello Malaka and welcome to our family. I was also a caregiver for my dad. He passed from EC with mets to the liver in March 2010. I too miss him dearly. But....I do not miss his decline in life. His horrible journey with cancer. His pain and suffering. If I could have him back, he would still have cancer. I do not want that. We will have to wait to see our dads again. We will, God has made us that promise. God never breaks his promises. Talk to your dad, he hears you. Write to your dad, he will read your thoughts. Start a journal. Keep in touch. We are always here for eachother.
Tina in Va
Joined: Dec 2011
I am really happy that I have found this post. I recently lost my Dad in Sept. He lost his battle with Liver cancer after an 8 year fight. Since he has passed, I feel so empty inside. Like most of you and I am a daddy's girl and will always be a daddys girl. So it means alot to know there are people out there in my shoes and going through the same motions I am currently going through.
I really like Tina's post because like her I would give anything to have him back but he would still have cancer and still be suffering and that's just not something I would want him to go through all over again even though he put up a great fight as I'm sure all of your fathers have.
I just want to say I send my prayers out to you all. And I'm glad I have these type of post to remind me I'm not alone (even though I feel like I am).
Joined: May 2009
Im sorry to hear about your dad....and can understand where you are coming from. I lost my dad almost 3 months ago to stomach cancer. I'm engaged to be married next year, and can't believe my dad wont be there. I'm so proud to be my dad's daughter, and I know he's keeping an eye out for me. I know your dad is also keeping an eye out for you
Joined: Jun 2009
I read your post and could't belive how much it resembled me and my father. Let me tell you, it has been 12 years for me, I never forget. I hold the thought of seeing him again. I still get the blues over it.