I am having a problem and dont have anyone that understands, including me. My emotions are so jacked up that i dont know what to think or do. Me and my wife have been battling cancer together since 2006. We both beat it the first go around but in 2008 hers had came back in the bone and brain. The last three years has literally destroyed us. Its been a nightmare that only you guys can undetstand. She passed April 5th. I thought i had prepared myself for that day but i was wrong. At the drop of a hat my insides kill me and i cant help but cry. I have been battling back problems for sometime now and due to no health insurance i dont really know what it is. All my symptoms are that of what my wife had and its a scary feeling. Im trying to get ducks in a row so i can get a petscan but with all thats happened i cant seem to accomplish anything. Life just sucks right now and i lost the one who understood. I know time will heal this hurt inside but time i know is valueble to me right now. I need to find the strength to take care of my problems while dealing with a lot of hurt and pain. I need to get strong for my kids and myself but its not happening. Any words of encouragement or advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for listening