Apr 07, 2011 - 9:55 am
I am extremely frightened at my mom's pending diagnosis, they're pretty sure it's cancer but are doing a biopsy.
I can't even type the details at what the doc found on the CT scan. I will breakdown.
This past week I haven't slept and literally shivering with fear for my mom. My mom seems to be handling it well and has just accepted her fate, she even tells me whatever the outcome, you have to be strong.
My world is turned upside. I feel lost, confused, and don't know what to do with myself.
I don't want to lose her but then I have no control over what is happening to her which is hard for me to accept. Am I going to feel this fear for the long haul every minute of the day? If so, I may go crazy. I can't spiral downward, my mom needs me.
Maybe I'm not so strong.