Ca 125

Sandy10
Sandy10 Member Posts: 80
in Ovarian Cancer #1
Hello again!!!

I have been off the board for a few weeks. I guess sometimes, i need to "get away from it all." I have a brother in law that is in the final stages of colon cancer. He is at home with hospice. Yesterday, the visiting hospice nurse has called in the "crisis team" which means that now he has a nurse with him 24/7. he is unable to walk anymore and has not eaten in almost 2 weeks. They also think that he has a blockage now as well. He is also in a lot of pain. They are dosing him with heavy amounts of morphine for the pain. It is so hard to watch this. It seems like sometimes it comes at you from all sides. I watch him and think, is this what is going to happen to me? I am scared to death!!! and to top it off, tomorrow I have my next Ca 125 drawn to see if I am still NED. It is amazing that our lives are measured by a little lab result. I get SOOO anxious for the 2 weeks before my blood draw. I haven't slept all night. UUGGHHHH!!!!!! I REALLY HATE CANCER!!!!!! Sorry for the rambling, i just need to calm down and try to sleep a little bit. My husband tells me, "we're alright honey, the Ca 125 will be fine." "try to calm down.".....easier said than done. I am lucky in that I work at the hospital where I get my blood draws,so, i will have my results tomorrow as well. I guess that's a good thing because I won't have to wait until monday to get them from my doctor. anyway, thank you (again) for letting me rant. You all are in my prayers every day. ((((HUGS))))

sandy

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  • azgrandma
    azgrandma Member Posts: 609 Member
    #2
    hi
    Hello
    i just got my scan yesterday so I am waiting for results also and getting nervous.
    I lost my sister in nov to lung cancer and it was hard to watch her slowly waste away.
    It is hard to watch our loved ones suffer.
    I will pray for you and your family, God will be there with you and he will see you through
    Love Lynda
  • mopar
    mopar Member Posts: 1,972 Member
    #3
    azgrandma said:

    hi
    Hello
    i just got my scan yesterday so I am waiting for results also and getting nervous.
    I lost my sister in nov to lung cancer and it was hard to watch her slowly waste away.
    It is hard to watch our loved ones suffer.
    I will pray for you and your family, God will be there with you and he will see you through
    Love Lynda

    SO SORRY, LYNDA AND SANDY
    I'm so sorry that both are going through this, and for the loss you have had Lynda, and for your brother-in-law, Sandy. These are not easy times. We can only pray for peace and comfort, and hopefully you find some comfort here.

    I am waiting to get my CA125 retaken next week, and probably have to wait another week or so for the results. It has jumped quite a bit in one month, and since I have been NED for 5 years now (since my recurrance), it put a scare in me. I'm rationalizing, thinking of all the things it 'could' be, and trying to be patient and hopeful.

    So, for you Sandy, please let us know you're CA125 when you get the results. I'm going to say you'll be NED still, just as your husband has assured you!

    And Lynda, please let us know what your scan results are. One thing we can certainly say here, is that we all understanding what each of us are going through.

    Hugs & Prayers,
    Monika
  • srwruns
    srwruns Member Posts: 343
    #4
    I am so sorry to hear about
    I am so sorry to hear about your brother in law. I am right there with you in the anxiety about test results. I just finished my chemo last Friday, had my scan to day and will get the results on the 25th. After last Friday I was feeling pretty good and then the anxiety hit me at the Imaging Center today. I thought being finished with chemo would be the penulimate but waiting for the scan results .... well you all know.
  • Sandy10
    Sandy10 Member Posts: 80
    #5
    Thank you all so much! I can
    Thank you all so much! I can always come here to vent because all of you know EXACTLY what I'm feeling. I am Very sad to say that my brother in law passed away this morning at 6:18. He went peacfully. He just fell asleep and didn't wake up. I know that he is no longer in pain and I believe he is in a much better place. I picture him sitting in a boat with his father fishing and talking. He will be missed here but i am glad he is no longer in pain. As for my Ca 125, it is 8.3, normal, just like my husband said it would be. So, i was stressed for nothing. Next time, I won't be so stressed about it. yeah right, who am I kiding? I will be just as stressed the next time. So, today was bitter sweet for me and my family. Thank you all agian for all your prayers and positive thoughts! You are all in my prayers every day. ((((HUGS))))


    Sandy
  • LaundryQueen
    LaundryQueen Member Posts: 676
    #6
    Sandy10 said:

    Thank you all so much! I can
    Thank you all so much! I can always come here to vent because all of you know EXACTLY what I'm feeling. I am Very sad to say that my brother in law passed away this morning at 6:18. He went peacfully. He just fell asleep and didn't wake up. I know that he is no longer in pain and I believe he is in a much better place. I picture him sitting in a boat with his father fishing and talking. He will be missed here but i am glad he is no longer in pain. As for my Ca 125, it is 8.3, normal, just like my husband said it would be. So, i was stressed for nothing. Next time, I won't be so stressed about it. yeah right, who am I kiding? I will be just as stressed the next time. So, today was bitter sweet for me and my family. Thank you all agian for all your prayers and positive thoughts! You are all in my prayers every day. ((((HUGS))))


    Sandy

    Glad and sad
    Glad to know your number stayed low and sad for your loss.
  • kayandok
    kayandok Member Posts: 1,202 Member
    #7
    Sandy10 said:

    Thank you all so much! I can
    Thank you all so much! I can always come here to vent because all of you know EXACTLY what I'm feeling. I am Very sad to say that my brother in law passed away this morning at 6:18. He went peacfully. He just fell asleep and didn't wake up. I know that he is no longer in pain and I believe he is in a much better place. I picture him sitting in a boat with his father fishing and talking. He will be missed here but i am glad he is no longer in pain. As for my Ca 125, it is 8.3, normal, just like my husband said it would be. So, i was stressed for nothing. Next time, I won't be so stressed about it. yeah right, who am I kiding? I will be just as stressed the next time. So, today was bitter sweet for me and my family. Thank you all agian for all your prayers and positive thoughts! You are all in my prayers every day. ((((HUGS))))


    Sandy

    Awesome
    number, SAndy!

    I am glad that your brother-in-law is out of pain, but sorry for your loss. I love that you are picturing him fishing.

    Take care,
    kathleen
  • nicolegarza
    nicolegarza Member Posts: 27
    #8
    very sorry
    I am very sorry for your loss but we all know hes in a better place pain free... my condolences to your family at this time...

    I have my 4 month check up today and had my blood drawn monday for CA 125 I'll get the results today after work... I really believe that it will be fine... but its still a lil nerve wrecking!

    Glad your levels were normal!

    God bless & Happy St. Patricks Day!
  • kikz
    kikz Member Posts: 1,345 Member
    #9
    nicolegarza said:

    very sorry
    I am very sorry for your loss but we all know hes in a better place pain free... my condolences to your family at this time...

    I have my 4 month check up today and had my blood drawn monday for CA 125 I'll get the results today after work... I really believe that it will be fine... but its still a lil nerve wrecking!

    Glad your levels were normal!

    God bless & Happy St. Patricks Day!

    So sorry for your loss.
    I sometimes wonder how we all handle all the things life throws our way. I, like you, am so glad to have this board not only for venting but to share happy thoughts. I am so happy for your good news.

    Karen
  • Sandy10
    Sandy10 Member Posts: 80
    #10
    nicolegarza said:

    very sorry
    I am very sorry for your loss but we all know hes in a better place pain free... my condolences to your family at this time...

    I have my 4 month check up today and had my blood drawn monday for CA 125 I'll get the results today after work... I really believe that it will be fine... but its still a lil nerve wrecking!

    Glad your levels were normal!

    God bless & Happy St. Patricks Day!

    nicolegarza
    Praying for good news for you!!!!! please let us know!!!

    Sandy

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