Mar 14, 2011 - 10:58 pm
I'm new to the discussion board, but not to cancer. First diagnosed in Dec. 2009 and had surgery on the base of the tongue. Then a reoccurance in May 2010, which resulted in another surgery and radiation for 7 1/2 weeks. Both lesions (also HPV-16 positive) were luckily Stage I.
The reason for my post is that I am celebrating life, but not a healthy way, and can't seem to snap out of it. I was a hermit for 4 years after my divorce, rarely went out and packed on a lot of weight. Now, with 80 pounds down, and 10 sizes smaller, I am acting like a 20 yr. old again (currently 44) for the past three months. I'm out every weekend, drinking and smoking, while enjoying the night life. I'm truly having fun, but I know this isn't healthy for me.
The doctors have asked and stress the importance for me to quit smoking. I feel like I have a two images on each shoulder, one saying what I should do and the other saying what I shouldn't do. I don't know what results I will get from this post, but I'm truely lost to what I am feeling right now, and not many can relate to my situation in life and would like to hear responses from people that have actually been through what I have been through.
I can take brutal honesty, too!