Mar 13, 2011 - 4:30 pm
Ok, I admit it, I am scared. The closer it gets to Tuesday the less sleep I get. I can get to sleep, I just can't seem to stay asleep. I've been up since 3AM just dozing off an on this morning. I know it's just stress, but man I have been down this road so many times I should be used to it. I haven't cried much because I don't know what to cry about. Frustration, Anger, Fear, Uncertainty? All of the above I guess.
What has me the most worried? My family. Pretty much all I have on MY side is my 84 year old father, and 57 year old sister. My dad is getting more and more forgetful and doesn't handle this stuff well. He's determined to come to my appt Tuesday and lives about 2.50 hours from me. I am afraid he'll get upset and get lost. I called today and asked that my step-mother drive him....I sincerely hope she does. I don't know how to deal with my Dad when he freaks over medical stuff and I have been doing my best to sound "in control, and in good spirits in an effort to help him feel better. It's much easier to do over the phone than it will be to do in person. My sister talks about coming up here (she's in Austin Texas) and I am in Kansas, but she doesn't deal with it well either.
Thank goodness they both kind of distance themselves because I am pretty open about all of this stuff and talk like it's just every day stuff..it IS in my world and they just don't know how to deal with it.
Sorry for the whining guys...just needed to get it off my chest. Take care everyone.