Mar 08, 2011 - 5:41 pm
Life is full of so many hardships. But where in the manual of life does it tell you how to deal with loss of loved ones? Where in a person's life or soul that tells a person how to act when a person dies? My mother died of melanoma stage 4. I watched as she slowly left me and my father, and I have felt an emptiness inside ever since.I also experienced a rush of overwhelming feelings when I had to carry her out to the hearse the night she passed. I feel changed from that, but at the same time I feel blessed because I had the opportunity to say my goodbyes, my tears, and my soul while she was here.
I cry unexpectedly and my emotions are in such chaos that I cannot have fun with my friends without being afraid of what will happen if I relax and party with them. I feel lost and alone because no one else besides my dad and my girlfriend knows the feeling of loss of the one person that was the glue to your life. Please share any stories or anything for that matter with me because I want my healing to feel like it is repairing that ache in my heart that was all for my mother.