Feb 27, 2011 - 11:50 pm
mine! I know we have all shared our feelings about the painful chore of going through our loved ones belongings. And we all pretty much agree that we will get to this when we feel ready. So, what does a lonely gal do on a Saturday night? I decided that since I am not ready to go through my love's things, that my side of the closet has been chaotic for almost a year now! My weight had fluctuated so much, I didn't want to give anything away. Think I may be stable for now, weight wise that is!
Do you know what happened? Cleaning out my stuff proved to be as hard as if I was doing his side of the closet! A dress he bought me, heels he totally went crazy over, so on and so on. Special nighties that he gave to me for getaways. The new Nike golf shoes he bought for me so that we could get back to golfing, we never did. The amazing Nine West boots and matching purse that he surprised me with two Christmases ago.
Four hours later and three crates of stuff that don't fit, don't like, or can't see myself wearing ever again, would just be too sad. For Dennis' Funeral Mass, he always said for me not to wear black, for me to wear red. My wonderful brother-in-law actually went out, shopped and got for me the most amazing red dress! It fit like glove, but would you ever be able to wear it again? Held on to it.
Anyway, my closet looks better. I can actually walk into it without stumbling on a shoe! Kept looking at his side, touching his clothes, his caps, his cowboy hats. Polished his ropers and western boots. Turned off the light and said," not ready".