I'm having a really horrible time of it at the moment :(
My husband, who is really a good man, has been very miserable and short tempered for the past few weeks, i have to tread on eggshells around him which is quite stressful. When i ask what's the matter he says things like 'it's been a tough 9 months' (since my dx) and 'no-one has been there to support me' He says he doesn't want to talk to me about this as it might upset me! Today he was just sooooo horrible we had a huge argument which basically ended in the fact that he is so angry and frightened and doesn't mean to be mean to me but i'm the only one he feels he can talk to. I said that I can't be there for him as a councilor as I'm using all my energy to be positive. My husband is upset that i've been suffering with really achy joints as a side effect from treatment and it really upsets him to see me in discomfort. I've told him that it is getting better but he just can't seem to move on. It's almost as if he wants me to be a 'sick' person not try and be stoic.
I'm a really positive person, like all of us i've had my moments, but i've continued working thru everything and just want to get on with life NOT be labelled 'ill' and waiting for a recurrence. My husband has agreed to get some councilling but all of this just makes me feel so down and sad, i feel quite sorry for myself at the moment. I WANT MY LIFE BACK.