Feb 22, 2011 - 9:11 am
My mom was diagnosed with Stage 4 Renal cancer last August. She had not been feeling well for a very long time but hid it because she had no insurance and couldn't afford to go to the doctor. By the time she did it had already spread to her bones, spine, thyroid and many other places. They did two rounds of chemo and radiation but it did not halt the spread of the disease. My mom died last Thursday, February 17th at 3:30 p.m. EST. My brother and I had planned to fly out to see her one last time but both of us had financial issues and were not able to book our flights until last Monday. We had hoped and prayed she would be able to fight long enough to see us, which was her greatest wish. I got the call from my father last Thursday at 4 p.m. and I have been totally devastated since. We are flying out tomorrow but it is now for the memorial service. I feel tremendous guilt about not making it in time. It still feels so unreal to me that she is gone. I keep thinking about all the things she will never do again. She was only 64 years old. Her birthday is in April. She never got to meet my two grandchildren who are 3 and 1 1/2. I myself am only 41 and I feel like I've lost a huge part of who I am. My dad and I are not close so I'm feeling awkward and uncomfortable about being there now that she is gone. I am going for her, I hope she knows how much I love her and how sad I am that she is gone.
I found this site this morning and just wanted to post something about her. I wish the whole world could know how loving and wonderful my mom was.