I guess I need some advice from you all...
After dx in 7/10 of Stage 1C IDC, Triple negative, med grade I had 2 lumpectomies (to get clear margins). I've made it through 6 rounds of chemo but my tumor markers were going up instead of down (31-8/25/10, 36-1/7/11 & 41-1/25/11). My doctor didn't like the upward trend, so I had a PET scan on 2/1 and it was CLEAR. He wanted a bone scan but when the PET came back clear, my onc oked me for 33 radiation treatment of which I have had 5 so far.
Came into work today after treatment, going about my business when my onc's office called and said he wants another blood test (read as tumor marker test) before 3/3. So I've scheduled it for 3/2 and I am petrified that my markers will still be going up and there will have to be more testing and waiting. My onc only calls with bad news (and usually after 7pm) so last time I was totally panicked when I heard his voice. Now I find I've lost my appetite (a rarity I can assure you) and I am actually terrified of what will be found. Due to scheduling issues, I can fit the test in any earlier and my husband says that worrying is pointless and to be calm, but I can't seem to get over the fear. If I wasn't at work, I'd drug myself with either valium or xanax, but that's tough to do and maintain.
How do you get through all the tests and waiting??
Thanks for your input.