Feb 17, 2011 - 8:32 am
It's been so long since I have responded to any posts that I feel like a newbie. I have not been in a happy place for several months so I felt it best to just stay away from these boards since I couldn't be of any help to anyone. Still not in a great place but I am slowly getting back to my old self.
Life was going good until December, I then had a couple of scares that brought me down and we all know that the waiting for test results doesn't help our mental state any. I try to remember Joe's famous words "It is what it is". I know worrying won't change the results and try to keep myself busy while I'm waiting so I won't waste my time worrying. I do pretty good during the day but when I'm laying in bed at night trying to fall asleep the doubts sneak back in.
The first 2 scares...questionable mammogram results and a biopsy of "something" in my sinuses turned out to be nothing. Went for my 6 month CT scan and the rad onc told me there were "subtle changes" so now my scans are going before the review board. I will know by March 2nd what their decision and recommendations are. I'm trying very hard to convince myself that this is just another scare and I will be fine. The only down side is that my doctor told me that no matter what the findings of the review board were I will be going back on a 3 month schedule for my scans. In a way it's good because they will know sooner if anything continues to change.
It's been 21 months since my diagnosis and life has been good so I guess I should be thankful instead of whining :)
Thanks for listening to me!!