Feb 12, 2011 - 1:43 pm
I spent a wonderful evening with the "girls" in my family last night! Enjoyed some wine, laughed harder than I've laughed in forever! Played a silly board game! Listened to the young ones music!
So why is it that this morning I feel so lousy? No, I didn't drink too much wine! Lousy that I am missing my love so much. Lousy because it's the weekend, a time when him and I shared so many activities and love and joy, and I feel so lonely for him.
It's been almost two months since he passed away. Most days I keep busy, and that passes the time away. I'm getting tired of "just passing the time away", as if I'm waiting for "something" to occur. And I don't know what that something could be.
When folks say to me, " be patient with yourself" and " your are doing so good", I really don't know what to be patient for, or what is so good?
Just a "not so good day" I suppose. Maybe tomorrow will be a