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elaineG
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Having been really good at keeping to the right sorts of foods, supplements etc to help beat this rotten disease, I miss just leading a 'normal' life, which would include the (very)occasional night out with friends, when I could let my hair down and generally party! When I asked my oncologist the other week how much I should drink on a night out he limited it to one drink, and I know that red wine would be preferable, but I want gay abandon!! I want to forget I have this shitty illness and be the person I was before (not that I was propping up the bar on a regular basis by any manner of means!)!
My work has its re-scheduled Xmas yearly meal/drinks night out this Saturday and I am in a quandary. I know I am lucky to be in a position to fight this cancer with chemo and diet, and maybe I'm just feeling a bit low 6/8 through chemo, and finding it particularly exhausting this month, or maybe I'm just being a bit spoilt, but I could scream!
I'm not bothered at other times, but miss joining in on all the fun..

Please excuse me for being trivial and petty, but just wanted to rant!

I know the answer to this - keep to the healthy options, but argh!!!!!!!

Elaine

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idlehunters
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Hey Elaine... I know just how you feel. The Onc told me the same thing..1 drink.... I said screw that........ whats it gonna do..make me sick?? give me cancer??? Kill me???? Not that I do it a lot.... honestly.... probably 3 times a year.... but when I do it... I party hardy!!! I get trashed!! Just like "the good ole days" Ya want to hear something weird??? I NEVER got a hangover!! never got sick.... didn't die.... I am not promoting to go out drinking against your doctors orders.. I am just telling you MY experience. I refuse to let cancer take over my entire life. No way! I was willing to pay the piper whatever the cost is.... just my 2 cents!

Jennie

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Kerry S
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It’s probably not a good idea.

However, while you cannot drown your sorrows in booze, you sure as hell can make them swim for it!!!

Kerry (old exdrunk)

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elaineG
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Thanks Jennie and Kerry! Feels good to hear a bit of lightheartedness! And also, that there are others out there feeling like me!! Still undecided though.... Will I? Won't I?.. >: /
Elaine

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thxmiker
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My Onc. gave me permission to have beer and wine in moderation during Chemo. He said Hard Alcohol is harder on one during Chemo. Of course he said if you can stay away from alcohol, but if it is a better quality of life issue then have a drink.

We like a glass of wine or beer with dinner, and 5 out of 7 nights a week we do have a glass with dinner. It is a quality of life thing. How does one have pasta with out a glass of red wine? We don't get it.

Best Always, mike
PS Ask your Onc. for their advice on your particular treatment.

steve g
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My Onc said a glass or two of wine before dinner was ok by him, he just failed to understand the good cigar I enjoy with it. Can't give up all of life's little pleasures. I have never altered my eating habits, even with the colostomy, if no output for over a day, I eat 2 or 3 apples or drink a glass of prune juice. So far no problem. Cancer is not going to control my whole life.....Steve

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elaineG
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Thanks to everyone for your advice. I did succumb and joined in on the fun and had a few rose wines! Back to behaving now though!!
Thanks again!
Elaine

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Kerry S
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Damn, I can’t drink. I will confess I have taken a percocet to knock the edge off my nerves a few times. The deep fear of going back to being hooked on anything again keeps me inline.

Right about now I wish Buzz and I could be sitting in the Kubota in the woods knocking down a few and filling the woods with our style of BS.

Kerry (when I get up in the morning – that’s the best I am going to feel all day long)

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Kerry S
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There is no way you should feel any guilt about me being wired different with regards to booze. Hell, we keep booze in the house and beer in the refrigerator for our friends. This coming August I will have not have had one drink for 28 years.

I think what keeps me from abusing percocet is
A: I fully understand my problem with booze and addiction
B: percocet constipates the hell out of me

In this part of the country the idiots pay $12 per pill for percocet. I do think what I learned about myself when in the drunk farm has helped me cope with this cancer crap.
I have often thought how ruff dealing with cancer and a drinking problem at the same time would be pure hell.

Kerry (I have a trick in mind for my buddy Buzz when I get back to being me)

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elaineG
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Firstly, thank you Graci for the lovely comments - that was really sweet of you! Secondly, sorry Kerry, for being so petty about something that can be such a serious issue for others. As it is, I've decided that it wouldn't matter if I was having a diet coke or fresh orange, the important thing is that I was out with my friends, and I will be taking that into consideration in future. :). It's true, Graci, that you do discover the people around you that can 'take' your cancer and those that shy away from it, and that can hurt at times, but they're not really worth bothering about!

Good luck with your surgery, Kerry, which I read about in your post!

Elaine x

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