Feeling bad and wanting to apologize!

pinkkari09
pinkkari09 Member Posts: 877
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
Hello warriors. First and foremost I want all of you to know I feel really bad for only stopping in occasionally. My cancer battle has been on hold for a few months and I've been lacking on my support end of this board. I feel a little selfish that when things are bad I'm on here rambling away and looking for advice but when I'm good I'm on the run and not giving the support to others as I should so there is my confession and I'm so so sorry!! Then, I log on and find we have a couple fallen warriors who are now lifted angels. It broke my heart to read Joes status on FB, then I jumped on here and see we have lost a couple. My heart bleeds for those affected by this and I pray really hard for all of us. Thank God we have each other and I know Moopy would want us to lean on each other.

So now here is where I'm at since it's been awhile and I don't talk about my cancer much on FB. I have a PT Scan on Thursday, and guess what I have before my PT Scan, an informative speech :( Thursday morning I go to class and give my speech while I'm a wreck before every PT Scan for fear of what it might reveal. My cancer is the same as Moopy's was so having all that fresh in my mind makes it even more stressful. Anyhow, one thing at a time, I'll get through my speech, take the ativan they give me for the scan (or should I take the ativan before the speech, that would be fun) and head off to the clinic. Just want to say, I'll let all of you know how it turns out and try to come to these boards more often so I can give my experience, strength and hope to others who may need it. So sorry again for going astray.
Hugs,
Kari
PS. Pinkkari09 used to be kmsmclaughlin I changed it because I got divorced and kmsmclaughlin has my married name in it.
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  • Aortus
    Aortus Member Posts: 967
    You have nothing to apologize for, Kari
    This place is no different from any other. People come and go. Sometimes for no particular reason at all. A couple of sisters are planning to go on hiatus for a while, and you come by to tell us that your hiatus is over. I don't know why you feel the need to apologize, Kari. I think you came back to us just in time. You're exactly right when you said Moopy wants us to lean on each other: what do you think I'm doing HERE this morning? So welcome back and let the mutual leaning begin!

    Love,
    Joe
  • aztec45
    aztec45 Member Posts: 757
    Aortus said:

    You have nothing to apologize for, Kari
    This place is no different from any other. People come and go. Sometimes for no particular reason at all. A couple of sisters are planning to go on hiatus for a while, and you come by to tell us that your hiatus is over. I don't know why you feel the need to apologize, Kari. I think you came back to us just in time. You're exactly right when you said Moopy wants us to lean on each other: what do you think I'm doing HERE this morning? So welcome back and let the mutual leaning begin!

    Love,
    Joe

    Hang In There
    Hang in there Aortus and you keep coming back when you need to. Words cannot express my sorrow nor can they provide any comfort at a time like this. Take care of yourself and I shall keep praying for Moopy and all us. May we find strength and comfort from the support of this special group.

    Take care,
  • Marcia527
    Marcia527 Member Posts: 2,729
    Glad to see you back but
    Glad to see you back but living your life is what it is all about. No need to apologize. Hugs.
  • sausageroll
    sausageroll Member Posts: 415
    Marcia527 said:

    Glad to see you back but
    Glad to see you back but living your life is what it is all about. No need to apologize. Hugs.

    Kari
    I agree with Joe Kari. We all come and go. Life pulls us away and then we feel the need to come back.
    Good luck with your scan and your speech!!!
    Take care of yourself Joe...that's what Moopy would want most of all. Pat
  • meena1
    meena1 Member Posts: 1,003

    Kari
    I agree with Joe Kari. We all come and go. Life pulls us away and then we feel the need to come back.
    Good luck with your scan and your speech!!!
    Take care of yourself Joe...that's what Moopy would want most of all. Pat

    Welcome back! Let us know
    Welcome back! Let us know how your scan goes on Thursday
  • aztec45
    aztec45 Member Posts: 757
    No Need
    No need to appologize. I was on the boards a lot when I was going through my cancer, chemo, and radiation. I had a little more time when I was home sick from the chemo. When I got a little better....my work schedule picked up and my time on the boards became less and less. Then a friend asked me to join FB and then some other friends introduced me to Farmville and then the rest is history. I work during the day and farm at night. So don't feel bad. We all go through it. Just be glad you are back as we are you are back. I am glad to be back.
  • Angie2U
    Angie2U Member Posts: 2,991
    meena1 said:

    Welcome back! Let us know
    Welcome back! Let us know how your scan goes on Thursday

    Welcome back Kari and good
    Welcome back Kari and good luck with your scan on Thursday.


    Hugs, Angie
  • lizzie17
    lizzie17 Member Posts: 548
    sometimes i just don't comment
    I am on the board every day. Sometimes I just don't comment because I don't always know the right words to say. But, be assured, the feelings are always in my heart.
  • cindycflynn
    cindycflynn Member Posts: 1,132 Member
    Good to see you!
    And as others have already said, absolutely no need to apologize.

    I'll be thinking about you and praying for good results on your scan.

    Hugs,
    Cindy
  • VickiSam
    VickiSam Member Posts: 9,079 Member

    Good to see you!
    And as others have already said, absolutely no need to apologize.

    I'll be thinking about you and praying for good results on your scan.

    Hugs,
    Cindy

    Kari, Welcome back .. no apology needed. We are family
    and we do want we can, when we can. Please take care, and let us know how you scan goes. Also, you stated something about your treatment being put on hold, is this something you want to talk about, or perhaps I mis read something.

    Strength, Courage and Hope ..


    Vicki Sam
  • Wolfi
    Wolfi Member Posts: 425
    Welcome back
    Kari,

    Welcome back. I'm glad that you will keep us posted on your PT scan. You will be added to my prayers that your scan will be clean.

    (I like your new picture.)

    Wolfi
  • MyTurnNow
    MyTurnNow Member Posts: 2,686 Member
    Kari, welcome back!
    It's good to see you posting again and I love your new picture.

    The BEST thing about this amazing group is that there are no rules. The door is always open and welcoming. We have had some dark days lately and have had to lean on each other. That's the BEST part of this group......the true caring and love for each other.

    I am sending strength to you to get through your speech, first, and then the scan. Be sure to let us know how it all goes. Take care, sister!!
  • aysemari
    aysemari Member Posts: 1,596 Member
    Welcome back Kari!
    Good to see you again. No need to feel bad, we give when we can. And sometimes
    you need to take a break and take care of you first. And cancer and a divorce.. that
    certainly needed all your attention.

    I am keeping my fingers crossed for your PT scan, keep us posted.

    Hugs,
    Ayse
  • sea60
    sea60 Member Posts: 2,613
    aysemari said:

    Welcome back Kari!
    Good to see you again. No need to feel bad, we give when we can. And sometimes
    you need to take a break and take care of you first. And cancer and a divorce.. that
    certainly needed all your attention.

    I am keeping my fingers crossed for your PT scan, keep us posted.

    Hugs,
    Ayse

    Don't feel bad
    there are other things going on besides your battle with this. Life issues happen every day. Everyone has the freedom to come, take a break or visit when they can. We're all here with open arms.

    Let us know how it goes.

    God bless,

    Sylvia
  • EllenaMaria
    EllenaMaria Member Posts: 69
    aysemari said:

    Welcome back Kari!
    Good to see you again. No need to feel bad, we give when we can. And sometimes
    you need to take a break and take care of you first. And cancer and a divorce.. that
    certainly needed all your attention.

    I am keeping my fingers crossed for your PT scan, keep us posted.

    Hugs,
    Ayse

    It is an open door.
    I was drawn to you when I first found this forum because you have kids, although older than mine. Never apologize. Being here whether looking for advice, giving advice or whatever is what this is all about. Joe is paying it forward, doing his part however that may be.

    I really wish you the best. I like my plate full too, sometimes I work better that way. Good luck in all you are doing. Not that this is exactly the same kind of test but I just read an article that students who wrote down their fears prior to a test did far better than those who did not. Vent whenever you need to!
  • laurissa
    laurissa Member Posts: 773
    Hi Kari!!
    I also come and go and feel bad for doing that, staying off too long. Maybe I feel guilty because things are going well for me physically. I wish you well on your scan. And Joe, my thoughts are with you at this very sad time. How fortunate Lisa was to have such a wonderful man.
  • Eil4186
    Eil4186 Member Posts: 949
    Welcome back and good luck
    Welcome back and good luck with the speech and the scan will be totally clear!
  • KayNYC
    KayNYC Member Posts: 495 Member
    Welcome back
    No apologies needed. Sending prayers and positive thoughts for your scan and your presentation.
    Hugs,K
  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member
    Wolfi said:

    Welcome back
    Kari,

    Welcome back. I'm glad that you will keep us posted on your PT scan. You will be added to my prayers that your scan will be clean.

    (I like your new picture.)

    Wolfi

    Welcome back too! Sending
    Welcome back too! Sending prayers and hugs!


    Leeza
  • Kylez
    Kylez Member Posts: 3,761 Member
    Eil4186 said:

    Welcome back and good luck
    Welcome back and good luck with the speech and the scan will be totally clear!

    Wishing you good luck with
    Wishing you good luck with the scan and good luck with your speech! I bet you will be great!


    Let us know!