My mom, who has been my rock through out life passed away on Christmas Day. On Nov 23rd I took her to the hospital thinking she had a flair up of her Diverticulitis, but come to find out she had stage 4 Ovarian Cancer and didnt have long to live. She came home with hospice, It just didnt seem real she battled heart disease forever and now it is cancer that is getting her???!!! As the weeks passed hospice told us that any day now but she lasted 8 days longer then expected and passed on Christmas.
I have been in disbelief and I feel so much pain. I know that she is in a better place and im so thankful she is now in heaven with my dad, but I keep thinking who is going to make me feel better when im upset or who is going to make me feel like im the only one who matters to them and that I make them the happiest? I know I have family and a husband for all that but there is nothing like it when its your mom.
The weekend before I took her to the hospital I told her I was pregnant! I couldnt be more excited to have my baby with her around and to have her help me and my husband pick a name and teach us things that she used to do with me when i was a baby. Im just glad she found out before she had to leave and will be a angel watching over us. But I would love to have her here so much more!!!
I am still grieving and trying to heal I am just not handling this very well and wanted to share and I guess vent my saddness to people who went through this or who are going through this. So any suggestions or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated. I just feel so lost and so depressed, its alot of poor me right now.....
Thank you for reading