Jan 01, 2011 - 7:46 pm
I feel guilty about posting this, as I know that others are going through dark times. However, I remember reading similar posts when we were smack dab in the middle of the valley of the shadow of death, and (while I was envious) it helped me believe I would see good days again:
New Year's Eve!
All three children had sleepover parties (elsewhere) and we were able to tell them to go ahead and have fun. No worries (other than "normal" worries - make sure the basement doors can be unlocked from the inside and you don't use ANY candles and call me if anyone drinks and passes out).
We got to plan our own dinner. Doug said he'd like to try eating a steak. OK - we split a nice, tender rib-eye (on sale, yay!) and he could actually chew and swallow it. He didn't taste it so much, but still. He also was able to eat a bit of salad and hashed browns. Wow.
We were celebrating the fact that he'd gained 10 lbs since his big weight loss - he had said he'd make 150 lbs by the end of the year, and he really did it.
We watched an old movie and went to bed just before midnight. We didn't really care about watching Dick Clark. We heard fireworks outside and knew it was midnight but didn't care about that too much, as we'd made our own fireworks and we felt wonderful. (Sorry if that's TMI, but I know that one big fear in the beginning was that we'd never do fireworks again. Then I was afraid I'd lose him and fireworks were not important. So now, I cherish them even more than ever.)
Anyone who read some of my other posts know that I had some dark days indeed (did I REALLY write that bit about the knife?). I also know that those days might come back.
But, for now: the days are getting longer and the sun is in the sky a few minutes more each day. Every day, every hour and every minute is precious. We have very low bank balances and very high debt but I feel very rich and very lucky right now.
My only wish is that I could share the wealth. Happy New Year everyone.