Dec 29, 2010 - 9:57 pm
On Thanksgiving. After a 10 month battle, with many ups and more downs, he passed peacefully in his sleep. I think he was waiting for Thanksgiving, he had been really looking forward to the big family get together. I felt like life was on pause while he had cancer, it revolved around treatments, side effects and dealing with the day to day of things so much- there was no making plans- each time we tried they got messed up- even when we'd planned for him to go into the hospital for physical therapy he ended up going in a day earlier. Strange. Broke my heart that he wasn't able to walk since June, that he never got to feed our new daughter, that he never changed a diaper and only held her a handful of times.
Now the kids and I are still taking everything one day at a time. It feels strange to not have doctors appointments and trips to the hospital every couple of days. He was living at the hospital and rehab facilities and nursing homes since August, so it's not so hard to have him not at home, but it's still strange.
I'm 31 and a widow, my husband died before his 38th birthday and I'm a single mom of 3 kids. That goes through my mind often, and it doesn't feel real.
I wanted to say thank you for all the resources and assistance I found here. You all were helpful in our time of need.