Dec 29, 2010 - 12:36 pm
Iceman (or anyone else for that matter), please read Rad's comments on my other post titled "new here...and quite scared" and let me know what you think?
Here is my position on this, I have been to two urologists already, the first one said he thought the other one was more qualified for my case due to the size of my kidney tumor, I went to see him, asked all of the normal questions and decided to have my surgery instead of doing the "wait and see" approach, that was almost two months ago, and my life has been hell since, waiting, worrying if I am going to be daed in a year, if this pain in my throat means that my 13MM tumor has spread...ect....
I went to my shrink and my docs and told tham all of this, they told me to STAY OFF THE WEB MD AND FORUMS ECT...they said everyones situation is different...I didnt listen and I came on here anyway, you all are great...but now I see this post from RAD on my old post, basically telling me to doubt everything I have been told so far and that my tumors have a good chance to come back later (RAD I mean no offense to you if your reading this). How would he know that? and who am I to belive, HIM, or doctors.....I am very impressionable and scared in this time, I already doubt the whole scenarion at multiple times daily, I dont know who to trust except my wife...I was comfortable with my surgeon and felt he was professional and talented (I really dont care if he is a nice guy, I realize thay are not my freind, but I am also struggling to trust that they are here to help me, and maybe its not all just so they can cut me open and buy a new boat...I mean the masses are there inside me, what am I to do, just wait forever until the almighty savior doc comes along with all of his / her promises? No Doc has told me 100% about ANYTHING yet, they all admit that the % chances I am asking to hear are up to interpretation.
I dont knwo, I dont want to offend, but I felt like I was being "SOLD" on someones opinion on the post I am referring to..
I feel like a good cry right now, but I am at work, I dont know what the hell to think now, any input would be helpful...
Thanks guys & gals