Dec 21, 2010 - 8:44 am
Too many meltdowns the past couple of days. Cannot get a grip and seem to keep being drawn to things that I know will prevoke a meltdown. As if I am looking to wallow in despair and pity.....
All that is left of blood is my 85 year old Mimi, my brother and my 2 sons. If it weren't for my oldest (21) I would completely be insane, and that is so not fair to him to be my rock!! My brother is dealing in his own way I guess, but I am dissapointed in his lack of ....of.....I don't know what it is.
My hubby tries to be there for me, but seeing as he lost his mom barely a month later, we are just not helping each other....
Need to focus!!! Want the memories to be happy and fond instead of so dang raw!!!