Nov 21, 2010 - 3:51 pm
I decided to take the time today and deck the halls, I will be going into the hospital on dec 9th for the big hernia repair and possibly having the large incsion again just like the resection surgery! I was going back and forth about decorating this year as the holidays are going to be spent recouperating and thought to myself why bother. BUT, I then realized that no matter what is going on, I need to celebrate every holiday to it's fullest. Maybe if I had not had cancer I might have just let it pass by without all the hoopla. I remember 2 years ago, I was not sure how many more christmas's I would have so that year I made it extra special. Well why was I contemplating not doing it this year? did I forget so soon the anguish of 3 christmas's ago? Have I come to that point that I am begining to fall into pre cancer behavior. I cannot do that, I need to remmeber the feelings and emotions and live each day like it is my last!