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Her name was Laura and I miss her every day she's not by my side

Myjk
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Her name was Laura, and she was my girl, and I loved more than anything in this damn world. we got married young. Both of us were 18. But we defied the odds and made it work. Ours....was a not a perfect marriage, but we tried and we made it through the tough times. 20 years we were together 'til the demon cancer took her from me, and I ******* miss her every day she's not here. Breast cancer was what got her, and as rational of a human being as I can be sometimes I do not understand why she is not here anymore. I'm hurt and I'm sad and I ******* miss her...ALOT. I thought could come in here and find others like me and find some sort of solace, and it`s pretty damn cool that we have this support network here, but I cannot stop the tears, even after 2 1/2 years. I miss her so and not a day goes by I don't think about her. Not to sound selfish, but I should not a widower at 38. I'm sorry if I come across trying to sound more hard done by then the rest of you on here - it's not my intent and I am sure you all miss your loved one's too, it's just I miss her so damn much that maybe it's time to reach out to others that have an inkling of what I may be going through. I am not even sure if the things I say here are correct. All I know is I loved her like no human being has ever loved another soul....even if I may have never shown it 100% of the time....and I ******* miss her alot and I`m not sure sometimes what to do about it. It`s true what they say....somedays truly are better than others. Thank you for taking the time to here my story.

Myjk
Posts: 9
Joined: Nov 2010

I miss her so damn much.

Myjk
Posts: 9
Joined: Nov 2010

I take time out of my day day to visit her grave every single day- is that weird? My up bringing and my insecure jock friends...and even some of the women in my life as well, all I ever here is how you are supposed to move on and just forget about it - maybe they don't know what to say and I get that.But it's not helpful. I'd admit. I'm angry every bit as much as I am sad.....if not more so. I had a nervous breakdown 2 years ago and the effects of that are still there. I turned to alcohol and hard drugs, but they are just a mask; a ruse

Missing someone is the absolute worst feeling in the world, and I'd rather be kicked in the face.

msnumom
Posts: 2
Joined: Nov 2010

I feel tha same loss for my mom. Do you have children? If so, there is a program called Camp Erin that will help them with their grief. As for you, put the alcohal and drugs down and face your grief outloud. Take the time to see a counselor and talk about your loss, about your sadness, about your lonliness, about your desperation, about your feelings, about you! It does not take the pain away, but it does help you get through the day a little easier. I am msorry for your loss. As for friends, they will not understand your pain and heart break until they experience the loss of a loved one. I will never get over the loss of my mom and take it one day at a time. I wish you the best of luck in your struggles.

Myjk
Posts: 9
Joined: Nov 2010

I'm broken and AI don't know how to fix myself

EmN
Posts: 2
Joined: Aug 2011

Hi sorry to hear of your loss and the pain you are going thru.
I have lost many close friends over the years and i wrote this song as a tribute
Please have a listen i hope it helps a little to soothe the pain
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aV2QLO7DEOY

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Hondo
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Joined: Apr 2009

It is so hard to let go at times when you love someone so very much. It is hard for me to let go and die and leave my wife caregiver behind knowing she will be all alone. It keeps me fighting and loving everyday I am still here with her.

Hondo

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Hondo
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Joined: Apr 2009

Sorry

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