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dixiegirl
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My baby Pogo is in the hospital today. Woke up at 3am to Pogo really suffering. She hurt her back about 3 weeks ago and seemed to be doing better. I have no clue what happened but I've never felt so helpless. She can't stand on her back legs. She was panting so hard Jim and I just kept trying to support her till we could get her to the vet this morning.

Problem is, surgery is very expensive and we just don't have the ability to do it. They are trying heavy duty steroids and we'll see tomorrow if she's responding to it. All kinds of prayers are needed guys. We may have to put her down.

My heart is breaking and can't stop crying. I had my treatment this morning so I'm tired from that and the benedryl. I'm exhausted emotionally and physically.

I know she's a dog, but she's my baby. I cannot stand seeing her in pain.

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Hi Beth,
I'm so sorry! I'll keep Pogo in my prayers! I understand what your saying about the high cost of Vet bills. My sons cat Danny was sick for 2 weeks with a bladder infection and if he hadn't gotten better the surgery the Vet recommended would have cost $1,500.00. My son about had a heart attack when he heard the cost. Thank goodness the 2 different antibiotics and special cat food worked and Danny didn't have to get the surgery. Pogo(and you)are in my prayers!
Love...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)

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I totally understand why you are so upset, your pets are part of your family and they mean alot to you, i hate to see any animal hurting, it breaks my heart,im truly sorry to read about pogo, will pray that she gets better soon, having a pet is like having a child, they can be as expensive as one, hugs to you and pogo
Chris(FNHL-stage3-4/08) remission

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Beth,
I know what you mean about your pet. It doesn't matter what type of pet we have,they are all like part of the family. I am the same way and do not want to see any animal suffer. We are all they have to depend on. It would be so nice if they could talk and tell us where it hurt. Hopefully they will be able to do something to help her. I do know what you mean about the high prices of the vets. It is a shame they have to be so greedy with their prices,especially when they know an animal is in need of help and they are supposed to be there to help all animals. I will keep you in my thoughts. John(FNHL-1-4A-5/10)

miss maggie
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I am so sorry for your pain. I have 2 cats now. Portia age 10, and Lucien age 2 But, years ago I had a dog named Pogo.
He lived a long and happy life. When he passed away at 15, i felt my world had come to an end. Even though I had a husband, daughter, and parrot named Max, I was lost without Pogo.

I will say a prayer for your Pogo. He will be in my thoughts, as you will.

Maggie

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dixiegirl
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Thanks guys I need all the help I can get as well as prayers. When I called the vet last night she was resting well. She's drinking and eating a little bit. She still wasn't able to use her back legs. We'll see how she's doing later this morning.

I had a rough time last night sleeping. She usually sleeps on top of me...all 87 pounds lol. Gidget my other dog is lost without her. My house is much too quiet without drama queen there.

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Hi,

I'm praying for you, your family, and Pogo. Oh my, can I relate! Our little adopted mix "Max" is like our son. He has everything to do with my recovery from treatment as I walk this bumpy road. I am praying that today will show great improvement in Pogo's health. We're all with you!! Hugs.

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My Max is actually in my picture.(Hard to see) He's in the kayak with me. Hates water but LoVES to go in the kayak. :)

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COBRA666
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Beth,
I have 4 dogs that like I said in another post to you are just like our kids. 2 hotdogs and a mixed Burmise mountain dog and another one that I believe is mixed coyote ,but the easiest going of all of them. They are all spoiled rotten. They are not happy till they can pile up in the bed. Thats their favorite time of the day. They are like little kids and I would miss any one of them. John(FNHL-1-4A-5/10)

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OMG my heart goes out to you and your dog, I have a 13 yr Golden retriever and he is losing his legs constantly, I try to be realistic and say he is 91 yrs. old, but I shutter the thought of putting him down......... all my prayers your way Vinny

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dixiegirl
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They tested her this morning and she has no feeling in her back legs at all. I am going to leave work at 2 and we're going to go say our goodbyes to her.

I hurt.

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Hi Beth,
I am truely so sorry that Pogo didn't respond as we all had wished for! My heart hurts for you as this will be a very hard day ahead. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Pogo...come back and let it all out if you need too...we will be here for you sweetie!
All my love and sympathy to you Beth..Sue :(
((((( xxxx)))))) hugs and kisses!

miss maggie
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Oh no. I am so very, very sorry. I write this with tears in my eyes. Our pets are our family. I have been where you are now, and it never gets any easier. At least you will be with Pogo when she closes her eyes. You gave her a good life and did the best you could. That's all any of us can do.

We have a beautiful animal cemetary where I live. I have 3 pets buried there. The rest were cremated and are with us forever in our home. Each urn has their picture. I have so many good memories.

Love and sadness. Maggie

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I am so sorry to hear of your loss; my heart hurts for you. My prayers are with you.

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COBRA666
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Beth,
I know exactly how you feel. We have had everything from ferrets,cats and dogs and everything in between as pets. It doesn't matter,they are all part of the family and it is no easier no matter which one has to leave us. I truely feel for you. John(FNHL-1-4A-5/10)

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Hi Beth,
Just checking in to see how things went for you. Been thinking about you since you posted this. Saying prayers of comfort for you.
Love...Sue (FNHL-2-3A-6/10)

miss maggie
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I can understand not hearing from dixie girl. I locked myself in my home for almost 1 week. I also didn't take any phone calls.

Maggie

yesyes2
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Oh I am so very sorry for your lose of your beloved Pogo. Our pets are part of our family, a very important part, and losing them is so very difficult. All I can do is send you love and healing wishes. Please let us know how you are doing.
Leslie

truckingalong
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Beth,

Here are my deepest condolences. May the sweet memories of Pogo strengthen you and hold you through. Please let us know how you all are doing and send us picture of Pogo.

With prayers,
Liz

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Swtkoolaid
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Beth,

I'm so sorry about your doggie... I know its hard, I've been through many and its never easy. They become part of our families, they become our children. My heart hurts for you. I hope that you will feel better soon... and find some comfort in your memories of Pogo.. take care my friend.

with love and blessings,

Andrea

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Pogo's home where she belongs. Aley brought her ashes home today for me. Since she was so protective of our front porch and garden I think I am going to make a spot for her next to a pretty rose bush. Maybe a stone with her name. That way I can still talk to her while I play in the dirt. :)

Thanks guys for letting me vent here. I will try to find the picture of her in my lap while I was going through chemo...we were both in a simple wooden rocking chair at the time and we didn't fit well LOL.

Peaceful healing to all of us

Beth

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So sad to hear the news of Pogo. It's very hard to lose them. The same thing happened to me and my dearly loved Collie,Lily. We had to have her put down the day I had my first biopsy on the lymph node in my neck. In fact when I came home from that I never made it in the house and sat outside while the family carried her out. It was awful but thank God I was still numb from the drugs. She had what sounds like the same symptoms, her back legs just went out and was so sick. The Vet said it looked like Lyme disease even though she had been vaccinated. Reading your posts brought back so many memories. We also got a new little guy very shortly after and he has fit in wonderfully. Good luck to you. The new pup looks adorable. Mary

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JoanieP
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Sorry to hear about your precious pogo. She will now guard your front door. We have such a loving God I know Pogo is running in a field of yellow flowers now. Happy and Healthy!! Let yourself grieve. Our pets are like family.

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