Oct 12, 2010 - 12:46 am
I first off want to tell each and everyone of you how great you all are. I have read the posts here for some time and think you are all brave and wonderful folks. And keep you in my prayers.
I have sufferd from anxiety all my life, At points it has been debilitating. This past year it has been Very Debilitating.
This past spring I was running and getting ready for a marathon that I was going to do this month but I had to drop out.
Half way through April My runs were getting longer and I was having to hold my stool. after a few weeks of this I started getting anal pain, After a week or two the pain got so bad I couldnt stand it and went to see my doctor, After a Digital rectal exam he told me I had a hemmorid. He gave me some cream and two days later I was back in his office In so much pain I could barely walk, I had also seen One strip of blood on one of my stools. I have always had great health so I was in a real panic. He could see I was worried and had me go in for a colonoscopy. The results of the Colonoscopy was that I had a Moderate Hemmorid and an anal fissure. I then went to see a rectal specialist and after he took a look in there he told me I had a fissure and needed surgery to repair it. I was Beyond myself in fear, I had never had to have a surgery before. I went thru the surgery (Lateral sphicterotomy) to repair the fissure. I asked him to do an HPV anal pap smear test about a month before the surgery, he told me that he would do it during the surgery. I was so afraid of being put to sleep for the surgery that I begged him to let me stay awake he agreed but wasnt happy. I didnt move a muscle, I did bite a hole clean thru the operating room pillow! After the surgery he came into see me and I asked him if it looked like cancer, He told me that it wasnt cancer. He went to see my parents and my parents asked if it was cancer he told them it was just a tear and was not cancer. A month later I went back for a post op. I had been healing nicely with no more spasms and felt 90% better. His nurse pract did my post op. She said the fissure looked good and she did a digital exam with her finger and said I still had a small hemmroid. I asked her if She thought it could be cancer, She said she has been trained to tell the differance. I then asked about the results of my HPV test. She told me the doctor did not give me a test! I was so worried about why he wouldnt do that when I asked him to! It made me not trust him. She said she would do one right away. Three weeks later she called me back and told me the test was clear. During the time I was waiting for the test I started to develope a small pain in my left shoulder blade when swallowing food or drinking cold water. I then noticed small lymph nodes in my right groin that felt inlarged. All of them were smaller than an M&M but felt kind of firm. I may have had these all my life and just never felt them, I have some in my neck that I have had over 10 years. I went to have the doctor feel them, He orderd a cbc blood test and told me I was fine. After the pain in my shoulder blade did not go away I went to see another doctor told him my concerns and he orderd another cbc and a liver function test and had me go in for an Ultra sound of the liver. The results on the blood were normal and Ultra sound said I had a few gallstones.
So Now I still sit in dread, All along I have had
My anal pain is gone I have no bleeding with stools for over five months now, And my lymph nodes have not gotten any bigger or more in number. And I have also talked to people who have had or still have pain in there left shoulder blade when swallowing and they have told me it is muscle related. To put a rest on this anal cancer worry is there another easy test to take that doesnt cost alot of money that I have been missing? I have gone broke with all of these medical tests and my insurance isnt that great. If I dont get any more symptoms I guess my next step is therapy?
Thanks for reading if you got this far, And thanks for any advice. B.T.W. I'm 31 years old Male. In ok health other then panic,and shoulder blade discomfort when swallowing food. Oh and I have gainded about 25 lbs since all this started. I eat when stressed.
Also as a side note to those batteling cancer, Check out Thomas Lodis youtube videos on how to stop making cancer. And Also Kim Tinkhams videos on how the PH miricale cured her breast cancer. I have been useing some of these things just incase.
Thanks again to all of you and God bless.