after chemo - scans and scared
I had no cancer in my lymph nodes. This is good, right? I'm so bad with waiting, especially waiting on medical test results. How do you deal with it? I mean, other than xanax, which thankfully I have on hand. It's so easy for me to see the positives in other's situations and to encourage positivity in everyone else, but point blank I'm just scared.
Thanks for listening
*hugs*
Heather
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Of course you are
Of course you're scared. If you weren't, that would probably be scary. Not having lymph node involvement is a good thing.
Just like with waiting for that first chemo treatment, waiting for results is awful. Thank goodness xanax is on hand.
I'd love to tell you not to worry, but I know that's worthless. Try to keep busy and occupy your mind doing something fun for yourself or with your girls.
Let us know the results. Prayers and good thoughts are going out to you.
BTW how's your mom doing?
marge0 -
I had scans before and my
I had scans before and my doc doesnt believe in them post unless symptomatic. Node negative is a very positive sign. Unfortunately getting through tests is hell, take a deep breath, distract distract distract. I will pray for you, to get through this and have good results. The chances are good!0 -
LOL Marge and I have thecarkris said:I had scans before and my
I had scans before and my doc doesnt believe in them post unless symptomatic. Node negative is a very positive sign. Unfortunately getting through tests is hell, take a deep breath, distract distract distract. I will pray for you, to get through this and have good results. The chances are good!
LOL Marge and I have the same thoughts! How is your mom?0 -
I had no time to think about it!
I had appt. with rads Dr before last chemo appt with Dr T. before last chemo. Dr. T and Dr. G (surgeon) had said that another scan was not called for at the time but Dr. P (rads) insisted that he had to have a new scan before he started rads in 7 days. So before i was allowed to walk out of his office his nurse had gotten approval from VA, made an appointment for as soom as I could get to the second floor of the hospital (connecting building), rescheduled Dr.T and chemo for as soon as hospital was done with me. So I had not time to think about it. (Actually it was the worse test I've had done as they decided they would access my port rather than use vein and they had no numbing spray - it hurt!)
My faith, family and animals keep me going. Don't have (won't take) any mind numbing drugs either - what ever i have to take, I want a clear mind to deal with it. We're all so different and our life's path has been so different - Mom's mother lived with us all of my growing up time and she was a 'legal drug' addict - there is no way I will allow myself to become that - hence how I feel. I think it's great that many can gain help/relief via these types of meds - but they are not for me.
Susan0 -
Heather
You are not alone. So many of us worry about the waiting for test results. I remember how awful it was when I had to wait a week for my PET scan results. The only thing I can say is hope that the chemo worked and no other cancer is found anywhere. I too had no lymph node involvement. I have chemo #4 next Tuesday. I still don't know if I'll be having #5 & #6. As of now I don't know about rads but thinking because I had bilateral mastectomy they won't be necessary. Waiting is hard but try not to worry.
{{hugs}} Char0 -
You know Heather...
inbetween all the tests and all the waiting, I stopped the worrying.
I had to think of my diagnosis and how unexpected it came and how
little I could really do about it at the time. So in a way, what will be,will
be, so why fret about it?
Turn this negative into something that makes you feel good. Instead of
fretting, start hoping.
Heather, really if you think about it... anything can happen to anyone at
anytime. So try to relax and you know that whatever the outcome -
you WILL the make the most of it.
Sending you big hugs and love,
Ayse0 -
Hey HeatherBelle We spend aaysemari said:You know Heather...
inbetween all the tests and all the waiting, I stopped the worrying.
I had to think of my diagnosis and how unexpected it came and how
little I could really do about it at the time. So in a way, what will be,will
be, so why fret about it?
Turn this negative into something that makes you feel good. Instead of
fretting, start hoping.
Heather, really if you think about it... anything can happen to anyone at
anytime. So try to relax and you know that whatever the outcome -
you WILL the make the most of it.
Sending you big hugs and love,
Ayse
Hey HeatherBelle We spend a lot of time waiting it seems.... ...Will be keeping you in prayer...Blessings0 -
The waiting game is tough; I
The waiting game is tough; I have no easy answers. I hate waiting. With time, it does get a little better. Time and my lexapro ;-)0 -
I know
I know it won't do me any good to tell you not to worry, I don't even take my own advice. The only thing that will really help and always helps me is to stay so busy that you just don't have time to think and when you do, you are too tired to give a damn.
Praying that all tests go well for you and that you won't stress too much.
Peace and Love,
Edie0 -
thanks for understanding. I
thanks for understanding. I knew i could get my fears & feelings out of me on here & that you would understand & support me you guys rock. I know i just need to take everything as it comes & not burden myself with worrying about things that i cant predict or control.
thank you
*hugs*
heather0 -
I agree with everyone else,Heatherbelle said:thanks for understanding. I
thanks for understanding. I knew i could get my fears & feelings out of me on here & that you would understand & support me you guys rock. I know i just need to take everything as it comes & not burden myself with worrying about things that i cant predict or control.
thank you
*hugs*
heather
I agree with everyone else, the waiting is so hard. You have accomplished so much in this battle, and your strength and compassion shine in your posts. I am sure you will get through this waiting period also. Please let us know when you get the results.
Hugs to you,
Linda0 -
Heather,
Like the others
Heather,
Like the others have said, we totally know about the waiting game. It sucks. Try not to let it ruin the fact the you will be finished with your chemo treatments! Think of how scary it was at the beginning, how hard some of the days during treatment were, and how much stronger you are than you probably ever thought you were. Breast cancer has given me a new perspective on things. There truly are things I have no control over. I still worry, don't get me wrong, but try to rest in the comfort that you had a good prognosis with nothing in the lymph nodes and you have done everything in your power to make sure it stays away for good. All will be good
Prayers and happy positive thoughts your way,
Michelle0 -
I know how just how you feel.
Oh yes Heather, I know how hard it is. I went through all that agony at the beginning of all this. I'm sure I will be sent in for a scan at the end of chemo. You don't have lymph nodes involved which is very positive to focus on. I have two neighbors that had many,many lymph nodes involved (15yrs ago) and are doing fine and active seniors!! Try to stay positive, Pray For Stength, and before you know it You will get GREAT NEWS!!
Hugs to ya,
Annette0 -
Thank you again for helpingAnnette 11 said:I know how just how you feel.
Oh yes Heather, I know how hard it is. I went through all that agony at the beginning of all this. I'm sure I will be sent in for a scan at the end of chemo. You don't have lymph nodes involved which is very positive to focus on. I have two neighbors that had many,many lymph nodes involved (15yrs ago) and are doing fine and active seniors!! Try to stay positive, Pray For Stength, and before you know it You will get GREAT NEWS!!
Hugs to ya,
Annette
Thank you again for helping to put my mind at ease before I go to bed i'm glad i thought i'd check in on here before i hit the sack!
A few of you asked about mom - she's doing better. Her attitude is great, even though the chemo knocked her on her butt for about 6 days. She's on her upswing now & feeling better. She was getting headaches & lots of nausea (though luckily no vomiting) from the chemo. BUT - she's really strong, and wanting to do whatever it takes to get better, and sees the chemo as a positive step towards her healing & recovery. Thank you for asking about her! Our article was in yesterday's newspaper - it was a fantastic write up with some good pics in it - but since they printed up a special section only on breast cancer awareness, and it wasnt in a regular section of the paper - it's not in the online version of the paper
I am going to (sometime tomorrow i PROMISE) try & scan the article to send it in an email to some out of town friends. I'd be happy to send out an email to everyone on here who wants to see it! I have a plastic surgeon appt tomorrow afternoon, rescheduled from yesterday, so it would be sometime tomorrow night likely.
Thank you again, good night & hugs!
Heather0 -
Heather, the waiting part is so difficult
you have to fight off negative thoughts which seem to creep in just waiting for the results. It's almost like we're "scarred" from that first initial diagnosis of bad news and you never want a repeat!
It's good that there is no lymph node involvement. As best as you can, focus on the positive and pray. Everything will be okay.
Blessings,
Sylvia0 -
I would love to read itsea60 said:Heather, the waiting part is so difficult
you have to fight off negative thoughts which seem to creep in just waiting for the results. It's almost like we're "scarred" from that first initial diagnosis of bad news and you never want a repeat!
It's good that there is no lymph node involvement. As best as you can, focus on the positive and pray. Everything will be okay.
Blessings,
Sylvia
I would love to read it Heather!0 -
Heather,Heatherbelle said:Thank you again for helping
Thank you again for helping to put my mind at ease before I go to bed i'm glad i thought i'd check in on here before i hit the sack!
A few of you asked about mom - she's doing better. Her attitude is great, even though the chemo knocked her on her butt for about 6 days. She's on her upswing now & feeling better. She was getting headaches & lots of nausea (though luckily no vomiting) from the chemo. BUT - she's really strong, and wanting to do whatever it takes to get better, and sees the chemo as a positive step towards her healing & recovery. Thank you for asking about her! Our article was in yesterday's newspaper - it was a fantastic write up with some good pics in it - but since they printed up a special section only on breast cancer awareness, and it wasnt in a regular section of the paper - it's not in the online version of the paper I am going to (sometime tomorrow i PROMISE) try & scan the article to send it in an email to some out of town friends. I'd be happy to send out an email to everyone on here who wants to see it! I have a plastic surgeon appt tomorrow afternoon, rescheduled from yesterday, so it would be sometime tomorrow night likely.
Thank you again, good night & hugs!
Heather
Remember when I was
Heather,
Remember when I was waiting for my results? I really thought I wasnt going to make it. But thank God it all came back clear, and so will yours. Thanks for the update on your mom. So happy to hear she has a great positive attitude. A fighter, like mother like daughter.
Love
Lupe0 -
Heather, I would also loveHeatherbelle said:Thank you again for helping
Thank you again for helping to put my mind at ease before I go to bed i'm glad i thought i'd check in on here before i hit the sack!
A few of you asked about mom - she's doing better. Her attitude is great, even though the chemo knocked her on her butt for about 6 days. She's on her upswing now & feeling better. She was getting headaches & lots of nausea (though luckily no vomiting) from the chemo. BUT - she's really strong, and wanting to do whatever it takes to get better, and sees the chemo as a positive step towards her healing & recovery. Thank you for asking about her! Our article was in yesterday's newspaper - it was a fantastic write up with some good pics in it - but since they printed up a special section only on breast cancer awareness, and it wasnt in a regular section of the paper - it's not in the online version of the paper I am going to (sometime tomorrow i PROMISE) try & scan the article to send it in an email to some out of town friends. I'd be happy to send out an email to everyone on here who wants to see it! I have a plastic surgeon appt tomorrow afternoon, rescheduled from yesterday, so it would be sometime tomorrow night likely.
Thank you again, good night & hugs!
Heather
Heather, I would also love to read the article on you and your mother. I'll pm you my email address. Glad to read that your mom is just like her daughter.....a warrior and coming out as a survivor. Keep up your positive attitudes. You will be fine!0 -
Scans
Hi Heather I am right there with you.I finished chemo End Of Jan and Rads end of march herceptin Sept. Went for cat scan last week, now I have to go for pet scan to clarify some of the things from the cat scan.I have no node involvement also.So the pet scan is not till next Sat than you wait who knows how long for the results.I know what you mean about scared! We'll do this week together.We can do it and the xanax will help You will be my thought and prays.This stuff sucks. But were are stronger that it is. Hugs Cindy0
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