Oct 03, 2010 - 7:39 am
Basketcase here. I'm leaving after church this morning to go to NC to see Charlie's family. This will be my first trip in without him. (Actually he's going with me, his mother wants me to bring the urn!. I know it will be hard at first but I need to get this first one behind me. I'm doing okay, it's just so hard. I miss him so much. This past week has been an up and down one. My brother came down to do some work I needed done around the house and I've found out just how pampered I've been for 35 years! I'm taking pictures to his mother that were taken before he was cremated (now, I'm not into taking pictures of dead people), but (and I don't know whether I've mentioned this to y'all before or not) when his brother, his wife and I saw him at the funeral home the morning after he passed away and we were done making the arrangements, when I looked at him I noticed this familiar half grin on his face (that familiar smartass grin that I've known for 37 years) I asked the man who was handling everything if they had done that and he said no! My brother and sister in law (who had seen him before they came to the hospital to pick him up) said, "No that grin was not there last night!" I took my best friend back over there (as she had seen him too before the funeral home got there!) and she was amazed too! We all take this as a sign from above that everything is all right. Anyway, his mother is 81 and did not see him before the cremation and she's asked me a 1000 times if we took pictures, so she see will them finally. Hopefully this will give her some closure. SHe had a heart attack in Jan. and was in a rehab facility for two months and her short term memory is not good. Anyway, please remember me and say a prayer as this will be hard for all of us but we'll get through it. I don't think this gets any easier, but we have to go on and do what we all know he would want us to do. THanks so much for listening and y'all are in my prayers daily. I will report back as to how everything went when I get back. Hope everyone is doing okay. God Bless!