Sep 28, 2010 - 10:08 pm
Well, today would have been our 25th wedding anniversary. I was dreading it so much, but it actually turned out to be a good day. I saw a bereavement counselor yesterday and she suggested that I get out with friends or family, and I did and enjoyed myself without thinking too much about "everything". I have read here so much about grieving taking 1-2 years sometimes. The counselor tells me that everyone is different and not to expect anything in particular when sadness and grieving is concerned and not to feel guilty about the good times I have and not mourning 24/7. The only thing I worry about is after these days of getting along pretty well, it will hit me and knock me down hard...back to the way I was the first few weeks. Time will tell I suppose but I will just take life as it comes and realize that I still have one to live and if I feel good about something, then it's OK...doesn't mean I love my Doug any less...only that I am healing, I hope!
Blessings to all, Gayle