Sep 28, 2010 - 10:43 am
It didn't take long for me to begin to despise that term.
Normal in any shape , form or fashion is gone. With it went spontaneous interaction. Nothing just happens any more, everything is calculated and thought out before hand.
What I say, how I say it, when (if) I say it ........ ! ! !
Everything has become a chore, no feelings of doing things because you want to. Going through your days trying to act "NORMAL" when you know it isn't. A tenseness always enveloping your waking hours, sleep is a joke and between worry and guilt, well thats the new normal.
The new normal means your life will be lived like you're a passenger in a car wreck that won't end. You know there's a big bang coming and you're helpless to stop it.
Every day begins and ends with one long and heavy , all the while exerting vast amounts of energy trying to control the release of a primordial scream of anger.
The new normal is loving and hating life in the same breath.