Back during a lovely spring day....Bill sat outside drinking his iced tea...and ordered flower bulbs for next spring...this is something he did every year.
My heart broke watching him do it....I knew he was not going to be here to plant them and he knew too...as I later found a "map" he put together to tell where to plant them.
Many times over the past months I thought about canceling the order before it shipped to avoid the pain of seeing them...but I just couldn't do it...it was the last thing he was able to do and it gave him comfort.
Well they arrived last week...I quickly tucked the box away...out of sight out of mind !
Opened it today and cried like a baby.
The order date was april 16 and he passed on april 21.
Right now I feel like my heart is shattered into a gazillion pieces....Will this ever get better ?