An update on Ed

lindadanis
lindadanis Member Posts: 235
edited March 2014 in Esophageal Cancer #1
It has been three weeks yesterday that Ed went into Hospice Care. Today a hospital bed is being delivered to our home, watching our bed be broken down last night made me think how the end is coming and it brought tears to my eyes once again. We are getting closer and closer and it is getting scarier and scarier. I saw Sherri's post this morning and felt so sad for her, I know the feeling all too much when the doctor says "we are at the end of treatment". There are no words that you feel when you hear this, you feel defeated. You feel that this damn cancer has gotten the best. Ed is barely eating nor drinking, hospice has been good, they come every other day, probably going to start coming daily. Ed is quiet, not as nasty as before. He is getting weaker by the day. Diana and I are trying our best of stay strong but it is not easy. Sometimes I just do not know what to say to her or to Ed. Such a sad time in our lives, don't know what happened, how to go here but do know that cancer changed all our lives. The big "elepant" moved in my home last October 7th when ed was diagnosed and never moved out. That is always how I felt. Very depressed today, I guess knowing that damn bed coming is getting me down.

Will continue to read postings and keep you all updated.

Linda

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  • Donna70
    Donna70 Member Posts: 852 Member
    #2
    thoughts and prayers
    Linda,
    How well you have put this. It is a sad ending for all that all of you have been thru. Now that Ed is not so testy maybe you and Diana can say those special words and remember with Ed the good times you enjoyed as a family. My heart goes out to you. My thoughts and prayers are with you. hugs from far away,
    Donna70
  • JaneE2366
    JaneE2366 Member Posts: 289 Member
    #3
    will continue to pray
    Linda,
    It must be extrememly difficult to get to this point. When I read about Ed and Sherri's Jim, it makes me realize how lucky Charlie and I are. We have been on this ride for over 17 months now and I treasure each and every day. I will keep both you and Ed in my prayers. Stay strong,
    Jane
  • mmr19
    mmr19 Member Posts: 75
    #4
    It has been a long, hard 11 months for you and your family. Now that the end is nearing, take the time to embrace your husband and daughter and let them know how much you love them. Sometimes a hug is worth more than a thousand words.

    You are all in my thoughts and prayers-
    Marta
  • MOE58
    MOE58 Member Posts: 589 Member
    #5
    IM SO SORRY
    Linda,

    As you know we are all family I am like marta, cherish the last few moments, and remember all the memories you had with ED before this elephant moved into your house. My prayers are with you and Diana at this time.

    Know we are here for you

    Hugs from Oklahoma

    Lori/moe58
  • unclaw2002
    unclaw2002 Member Posts: 599
    #6
    Linda,
    My thoughts and
    Linda,

    My thoughts and prayers are with you as you face these difficult days. Perhaps you can find some peace and solice in these final days and cherish the many happy years you had as a family. And even if he doesn't respond say I love you and will miss you . . . it is something I know I will have to face with my dad and can't begin to imagine the pain you are going through seeing this happen.

    Lots of hugs and love
    Cindy
  • Lylesmyprince
    Lylesmyprince Member Posts: 130
    #7
    unclaw2002 said:

    Linda,
    My thoughts and
    Linda,

    My thoughts and prayers are with you as you face these difficult days. Perhaps you can find some peace and solice in these final days and cherish the many happy years you had as a family. And even if he doesn't respond say I love you and will miss you . . . it is something I know I will have to face with my dad and can't begin to imagine the pain you are going through seeing this happen.

    Lots of hugs and love
    Cindy

    Love and prayers
    Linda,

    I am sending a bunch of love and prayers for your family. As Ed quiets down more and more...take that opportunity to get close to him again.

    You are doing a fantastic job!! You and Diana have had such a journey...yet you still find time to encourage others. What a gift!!

    Susie
  • sandy1943
    sandy1943 Member Posts: 824
    #8
    Having the bed set up makes
    Having the bed set up makes the ending of this life so real.I went thru this with my mother and it does hurt. Take what time is left and spend as much time as Ed will allow,to remember the good times before the beast came. The last few months have not been quality time. I pray you can have this now. I pray God will give you and Dianna the strength you need in the time you have left with Ed. My prayers and thoughts are with you,
    Sandra
  • oriontj
    oriontj Member Posts: 375
    #9
    Sorry for your pain
    Linda, I am so sorry this happening to your family. You are so right about the elephant moving in...and it takes up so much room.

    I pray for you all daily, for God to take Ed gently and give you strength for a little while longer. You are so brave...I don't know if I could do what you have done.

    orion
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  • Tina Blondek
    Tina Blondek Member Posts: 1,500 Member
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    May God Be With You
    Dearest Linda Diana and Ed
    May God give you all peace at this most difficult time. I agree with the others, do cherish this time. Do embrace all and tell all that you love them. Do tell Ed he has your blessings to move on. There is an old country song by Garth Brooks, "If Tomorrow Never Comes". Look it up on youtube and listen to it, it really hits home. I will be thinking of all of you and praying for you daily.
    Tina

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