Sep 04, 2010 - 8:59 am
Last night was horrible. I could not quit crying and there was a physical pain in the pit of my stomach. There is an open, raw wound that hurts more than any pain I have had. I want to go to church today but feel like I may just lose it at any time. I'm depressed....no drugs helping at this point. Cold and rainy weather made things much worse. No cozy evening sitting together on the couch watching TV after a big bowl of chili. On really cold days he would make a fire early in the morning and I would wake up to a beautiful fire in the fireplace....I dread winter badly. Right now, I am just a mess.