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only 3 more rad txments left. yesssssss

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nonichol
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Hi everyone,
I only have three more boosts of rad txments left, for a total of 28 txments!!!!!! I am sick, tired and burnt, but thankfully I see the end of this part of the nightmare!!!! Just a few weeks ago I really didn't understand why they use the term cancer survivor, boy do I know now.

Thankfully I have had the support of this site and all of you, cause no one else really understands. I believe I was able to get through treatment by reading what others have been through and have done to ease symptoms. I also have some great healthcare professionals and an excellent family.
Thanks again,
Norma

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z
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Hi Norma,

Good for you in only having 3 more txs left. It sounds like you've made it through well. I was so happy my last day of rad tx, not to have to go get zapped again. I wish you well. Lori

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mp327
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Hang in there! With only 3 more treatments to go, you are doing great! Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and you'll cross that finish line. Then you'll begin to heal. Take care.

sissy310
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Norma I was just where you are now and I know how exciting this is to only have three left...the last one is such a relief. When I left the hospital I cried in the car and my hubby asked me why - was I missing people or the hospital - and I said no. It is such a large weight off your shoulders and such a relief to have it done. Now you can slowly heal. So, I hope these last three go quickly for you and that if you feel that emotional moment after the last one, realize that it is the relief part. Good for you...let us know when you are totally done so we can all cheer and give you kudos!!! Be well, Marilyne

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Good for you!!! I have 6 more, but the burns and the rash on my bottom are getting worse. Does it start going away once the rad is done. Dr. Chiu finally gave me a pain patch and an ointment today...the phamarcy is out of the cream till tomorrow, but you can bet I slapped on one of the patches as soon as I walked in the door!! I told my doc today that if I were a babysitter and someone dropped a baby off with a diaper rash of this severity, I would call CPS, LOL. Anyways, keep on going, I love to hear from all of you here. It really does make this journey a little easier to talk to, and hear about, others that are going thru what I am. My sisters and my husband are like...I know it hurts, baby, it'll get better. They DON'T know. They can sympathize, but they don't know. So thanks, and God bless all of you. Melodie

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mp327
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Hi Melodie--

I know you are in the worst phase of this right now and when I think back to how it was for me towards the end, I can feel your pain. Honestly, it was so difficult to get up every day and keep going in for those treatments. But you can do this, just like so many of us have. I was very determined to get to the finish line and just took it one step at a time. That's what you have to do, keep taking steps. I hope the pain patch will help and that the ointment soothes your burns. And yes, the healing does begin rather quickly once treatment is over! I will be thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.

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nonichol
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Chica,
You have got to try taking sitz bath using Tea. 4 tea bags aboout 2- 3 cups water boil to brew, then add cold water and put in a tub and soak your bottom (make sure tea ccools off enough)and soak in it 15- 30 minutes, read a book or have someone keep you company. The longer you soak the better. Also soak often, blow dry with a fan (butt naked) ointment, lidocaine, then star over again. It is a lot of work but well worth it. Seriously try it, I was skeptical, but now a believer.
Take care,
TODAY is my last radiation. woo hoo!!!!!!
Norma

azkookie18
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yay Norma!! Congrats! Hoping you get the bestest results!!

sissy310
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Congratulations Norma on your last radiation....woo hoo is right!! I found it interesting to use brewed tea in the sitz bath but that makes a lot of sense. I remember having a bad sunburn and someone told me to use tea bags! I had forgotten about that. I'm post treatment only a week and a half so the burns and itching are horrible. I will try the tea bag one and try to sit in the water for longer than 10 minutes. You are right, relax in it and read a book or something. It does feel better...thanks for the tip. Again, hoo rahhhh for your last rad treatment!!! Marilyne

sissy310
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Great sense of humor Melodie - I know it isn't easy (I am only a few weeks ahead of you in treatment - done now - so I can relate to everything you are saying with vivid memories). I had to laugh about the diaper rash...that's all I keep thinking. Did my poor kids have this much pain with their rashes? Thank God I was proactive with them. I agree, until someone goes through this, they have NO CLUE of how much it hurts, how tiring it is, how frustrating it is...I have to keep reminding myself of that when my family and friends say things like that as well. I just keep thinking "this too shall pass" and we will be able to move forward with this as a memory...albeit a nightmare of one...but past tense. Keep the faith and keep writing in here letting us know how you are doing. Be well, Marilyne

cujuja4evr
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As I was reading your post, my eyes started tearing up because it reminded me of when I had my last treatment. I was handed a small box which had a guardian angel inside and the receptionist told me congratulations. Tears started falling and I cried all the way to the car. My husband understood completely and just let me cry and get it out of my system. He put his arm around me and that was all I needed.

Once you start your recovery, don't be like me and rush things. Let things happen as they may and deal with them as they come. I'm so glad to hear that it's almost over for you. Believe it or not, the burning will stop, the itching will stop, the pain will go away. I'm so happy for you!

Hang in there!

Judy

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Hi Judy, I cannot wait until the pain, itching and tiredness goes away. I keep trying to do something each day but each day it is the same so far. I just need to be more patient, which is something I do not have for myself. I keep thinking "I'm done. Okay. That should now mean I have the strength to do this this and this. Nope. One load of laundry and I'm pooped. One shower with hair washing and I'm pooped. And not just pooped, I have to lay down and rest for a few minutes before I can get up again. Is this normal? Grant it I'm only out of treatment a week and a half but dang...I kind of expected more than this. I guess my naivete shows through over and over. My husband said to me today...think you might want to go to the state fair next weekend? Let's see, walking 8-10 miles around the fair, bathrooms are always packed, great food but do not know yet what I can eat that won't kill my digestion that day or how many times I will have to go potty...hmmmm, I don't think so! He almost seemed disappointed. Like I'm done now, so let's get back to regular life. And perhaps that feeds on my naive need to bounce right back too and I'm not. Ah well, keep reminding me to be patient and give myself time. Maybe I will write this on my recovery board to as a reminder to be kinder to myself. Hope all is well with you. Be well, Marilyne

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nonichol
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Marilyne,
I feel the same way with and about my fatigue. It is ridiculous. And then the family, frustrating. I am the strong one in the family, so they seem to still expect the same from me. But I tried two loads of laundry yesterday and was too tired to dry the last one. So I am drying that load now. Of course, I also managed to make it to the store. Frustrating!!!!! Plus I need to get back to work, broke now. But trying to recouperate, no way can I go back right now.
Norma

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I understand completely. I was the same way. I was so tired all the time that I was tired of being tired! I live on the 3rd floor and I had to face those flights of stairs every day when I came home from treatment. My husband would always go in front of me so I could put my hands on his shoulders and he guided me up the stairs. For the longest time, I was scared to go too far from home just because I was always afraid that I would need to have a BM and at that time, my BMs were pretty rough and I really wanted to be home in my own bathroom! At least, if I had a painful BM, I could grab my sitz bath and get soothing relief, but if you're out at the store or at the fair, for example, we don't have that luxury.

I wish we could get back to our regular life, but I guess our regular life will never be the same. Don't get my wrong, I'm not saying that we cannot live a normal life, but we are very special people. We may have to deal with different changes our bodies have gone through and learn how to accept ourselves as we are.

I'm seeing a specialist tomorrow because I have a completely fused vagina due to the radiation. This may very well affect me and my husband for the rest of our lives. I may never be the same again when it comes to sex. Thank God I have such a loving, patient, and caring husband who says that we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. All he is concerned about is my health and well-being. I may have to have surgery to correct the problem and then I'll see what happens from there.

But, I'm glad I'm alive and that's good enough for me!

Take care and talk to you soon!

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nonichol
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I am done, I'm done, I'm done, I'm done, I'm done... that is my happy song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Norma

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mp327
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Congratulations Norma! What a great feeling, eh? My last day was so very happy, yet very emotional. Now you can begin to heal. Here's hoping that happens quickly! Take care.

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nonichol
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I have noticed you are sweet, smart and strong. Kinda lookin up to ya.
Norma

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mp327
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Hi Norma--

I have a strong feeling that you are all of those things too, and much, much more--all good! I think we all find out how strong we are when we go through this, and the good news is, we are even stronger when we stick together! I hope you have a nice, restful weekend--you certainly deserve it!

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I'm so happy you are done. In about 2 weeks you will be feeling so much better you will wonder how you made it through it. CONGRATS. Laura

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nonichol
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Are you a FA? I am, I work for Mesa a regional. I read some of your post in the past.
Norma

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462lt
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Hi Norma, Again congrats on finishing your treatment. I am a mechanic I work for a MRO now but used to work for Delta. Laura

azkookie18
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Since you work for Mesa regional, are you in AZ by chance?? Hope you're feeling well!

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nonichol
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I use to be in AZ. Left October 06, Now NC based.

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pjjenkins
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Seeing this a little late but yippee and may you now heal fast!

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nonichol
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Thanks. Post treatment two weeks tomorrow and healing has begun. Although, I think my brain just realized what all my body has been through and I am a bit weepy. Not really a crier so it is wierd. I am sure this is normal.
Norma

duckyann
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Extremely normal to be weepy....You have been through a lot and I think it finally all starts to set in when treatments end. You are too busy running for treatments and concentrating on getting rid of this BEAST to really have it all soak in. Hang in there it will get better.

Nancy

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mp327
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Once treatment ends, we are left in a bit of limbo. Treatment keeps us busy and our minds occupied. Afterwards, we can feel abandoned. What you are feeling is normal.

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