Aug 07, 2010 - 5:37 pm
Okay, I know I've been on here before talking about painful bowel movements and I've gotten some great advice and suggestions that even worked. HOWEVER, BMs improved for about a week or so and now I feel like I took 1 step forward and 5 steps backwards. I found myself in the bathroom earlier doing breathing exercises (short breaths - like when a woman is in labor and working through contractions!) I also found myself counting (1001, 1002, 1003...) as each stool passed through. Even the lidocaine is not working as well as it did last week. It feels as though I am passing broken glass! The lidocaine didn't seem to numb anything. Is my body beginning to get used to the medication and it's just not working anymore? I'm beginning to get the same anxiety as before - I'm starting to fear going to the bathroom. I was so relieved last week when I started using lidocaine and my BMs were so much better and very little pain, if any!
It seems as if my stools are still soft, but are larger than before, so when they pass through, it feels as if the anal opening is too small! Please give me some suggestions on what you think might be the problem. I rely very heavily on this board because I've gotten more answers from cancer survivors than my own cancer care team!