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Missing my mommy for a year :(

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allison731
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A year ago on July 18th, my beloved mother passed away. I am only 17, was 16 then. She was the only one to comfort me at hard times, so now I am lost without her. Besides Mother's Day, today has been one of the realest and hardest days I have yet to live without her. & I think I have finally realized I have been in shock and denial for a very very long time, and am just now mourning the loss of my mother. I graduated from high school and went to Prom, and experienced everything this past year without her. My first heartbreak was when she passed and it has yet to heal. There will always be the empitness inside of me. Although I have peace with knowing she is no longer hurting or suffering, I miss her and it hurts. I just can't believe my mommy is gone, and she will not be able to see me graduate, walk me down the isle, be a grandma and meet her grandkids all because God took her too soon. <3

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winsomebulldog
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I too lost my mother young. I was seventeen and although she did not die from cancer, I have been through that journey with other family members. Your post speaks to my heart because I was 17 when my mother died without warning. She just got sick and died over the course or a few days. Like you, I was very close to my mother. She was my rock in so many ways. And she was my friend as well. The strongest woman I have ever known.

Also like you, I endured prom and graduation, marriage and so many other things without my mother by my side. That was 21 years ago now, 22 next February. I am now on this site because I have breast cancer and believe me when I tell you that I would do or give almost anything to have my mom here to help me through it.

Losing someone you love is never, ever easy. Losing a mother you are very close to is especially hard when you're so young. And while I won't pretend that your grief and missing her will magically go away some day, I can assure you that it will get easier to live with. Right now, I know it feels like God took your mother too soon, that He has somehow left you all alone in this world without her there with you. But God does not make mistakes. He has a plan for you and someday, with His grace, you may understand it. I lost my mother too soon as well, but in the two decades since that terrible day, I have been able to comfort and encourage so many people who are going through the same thing. I was angry with God for a while over it, but He helped me through that as well. You are not alone, dear child. No matter how lonely you feel or how deep the pain of your loss, God is there with you.

I'll pray for you. God bless you and keep you always.

Jennifer

EKIDD2
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Joined: May 2010

Hello

I lost my mom back in May and I was 18 years old at the time. I was also really close to my mom, so I have really been struggling. I miss the support of my beloved mom! I'm not that close to my dad or sister.

I definitely am still in shock. I cannot believe I won't see her again while on Earth. It's inspiring to read stories of others who have lost their mom young, and they still went on to do great things.

I know that there will always be a small hole in my heart until we are reunited. Our moms would want us to find joy and to not let our sadness overwhelm us. But, it's very hard.

I"ll be praying for you. If you ever want to talk, I'm here. I'm also still struggling.\

Liz

EKIDD2
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Joined: May 2010

Hello

I lost my mom back in May and I was 18 years old at the time. I was also really close to my mom, so I have really been struggling. I miss the support of my beloved mom! I'm not that close to my dad or sister.

I definitely am still in shock. I cannot believe I won't see her again while on Earth. It's inspiring to read stories of others who have lost their mom young, and they still went on to do great things.

I know that there will always be a small hole in my heart until we are reunited. Our moms would want us to find joy and to not let our sadness overwhelm us. But, it's very hard.

I"ll be praying for you. If you ever want to talk, I'm here. I'm also still struggling.\

Liz

disneyfan2008
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Joined: Oct 2010

I can relate-but with the lose of my dad when i was 19 (just out of HS) missed my wedding, grandkids etc. I JUST try to think of the GOOD 19 yrs I had instead of what he/ I am missing..it's will be 32 yrs in Jan...helped me...though hard! of course...

think of the good times...my mom died 4 yrs ago this week-think of both of them daily..but try to not dwell on missing them...I HOPE this helps..

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