Jul 14, 2010 - 9:08 am
Well its now been 2 months since my mother passed and I am so mad at myself. I know I am supposed to think of all the good times we shared...but all I can think of and remember are the last 3 months of her life when we were in the hospital.
I look at photos of our great family vacations and time together...but in my mind the only vision I have of her is laying in the bed, in pain, uncertain as to what was happening, the ups and downs of is she coming home, nursing home, hospice. The rollercoaster ride of good days and bad ones.
Why can't my mind focus on the good times. Why can't I have visions of anything prior to those 3 months. Its like there is this wall in my head preventing me from going back any further.
Has anyone else had this issue?