Jul 02, 2010 - 11:15 pm
Hi I am a 38 year old from Australia and would love some feedback. I have secondary cancer in both of my lungs (8 tumours); my primary cancer was endometrial cancer five years ago.
I was told that I would need three rounds of chemo which I have finished. I have had a CT scan; one tumour is gone and the other seven are greatly reduced. Great news but I have been told I will need another three rounds of chemo.
My doctor has told me that I can't kill this thing but there is a 60% chance it will go into remission. I don't want it to go into remission, I want it GONE. I don't want to have to worry when it will pop its ugly head up again.
I have taken a couple of weeks off from treatment and I feel great and happy from the first time in months; but I am booked into have another treatment in two weeks and I don't want to do it. But how do you tell your familiy that you are not going to have chemo anymore and let the cancer take it's course? I feel so bad thinking this way when there are people out there who have been diagnosed with terminal cancer and would love the chances I have. I have all the support you could ask for from family, nursing staff, doctors and friends but I want a permanent end to this cancer.
My heart is breaking. Has anyone else had this dilemma?
Kind regards Michaela