My mom is 75 and has stage IV cancer. Breast cancer with mets.
I live 50 miles away from her, but have become her primary caregiver. She does have hospice nurses that visit everyday, but she lives alone and tries to manage daily living on her own.
I have a sister who will not help at all. She is incredibly selfish and self centered. She Does not want to be bothered by any of it. Leaving it all for me. Doctor appointment, shopping for her, cleaning for her, among other things.
I am exhausted and overwhelmed. My mom has miraculously survived for four years since her diagnosis. She is very sick, but determined to hang in there.
I have a part time job, I am a full time college student, and have two kids of my own. I am trying to juggle all of it with no help from anyone.
I love my mom, but as horrible as this sounds, sometimes I wish it was over and I could have my life back. I almost feel disappointed sometimes when she is having a good day because I wonder how much longer this is going to go on. It is exhausting, and I hate watching her suffer. She gets plural effusions from her cancer and has difficulty breathing. She sometimes has horrible pain from her tumors. I am so tired and sometimes don't want to answer the phone when my mom calls, because I know she will ned something and I am the only one who will do it for her.