Jun 14, 2010 - 4:39 pm
Just got back from the hospital after having my results. It is 10 weeks since the end of my treatment. CT showed all cells in the peritoneum had got smaller, lymph nodes clear, liver clear, bowel clear, pancreas clear, kidneys clear, gall blader clear. Small amount of fluid in pelvic area and tiny amount in right lung. I had 3 chest drains there so there is a thickening but it is not cancerous. My CA 125 is 34. (It had come down from 65) My onc said I looked well and after a physical exam pronouced me healthy and fluid free in my stomach. They don't need to see me again for 2 months and I will have another CA 125 test.
Why do I feel so bad???????????????
I was a wreck when I came out of the hospital, crying and feeling down. It was a good result - I know. What I don't get is, why can't I see it and celebrate it?
I think when I am at home I forget I have cancer and everytime I go back to the hospital it makes it all real again. I survive as an ostrich and pretend everything is well which is all well and good but when I get a reality check it knocks me back.
I think my onc said I had a "partial response" so I'm not NED yet. Lets hope the chemo continues to work & my numbers drop for my next result.