Warrior?

waffle8
waffle8 Member Posts: 234
edited March 2014 in Breast Cancer #1
When do you start to feel like a warrior or courageous? Went to my treatment yesterday and all I could think about was "I do not want to be here"... The highlight of the day was my friend and I pass the time away during chemo by scratching lottery tickets.We won 200$$.Yea.....!!!!!

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  • MyTurnNow
    MyTurnNow Member Posts: 2,686 Member
    #2
    You are a warrior right now
    You are a warrior right now and it sure took courage to go in there and do the chemo. So, you are already there. Keep scratching those tickets and let us know when you hit the jackpot. I quit a long time ago because if I win I buy more until I've lost everything. I'm not a gambler either!! Good luck Waffle!!
  • mwallace1325
    mwallace1325 Member Posts: 806
    #3
    You've been a warrior
    You've been a warrior since you got the diagnosis. Be sure that every woman on this board has had the same "I don't want to be here" thought. The important thing is you went, you stayed, you got thru it and you'll do that with all the other treatments. When it's all done you'll back and realize that all this becomes a distant memory (not a very pleasant one to be sure - but distant). Take care of yourself and remember we're all here for you.
  • greyhoundluvr
    greyhoundluvr Member Posts: 402
    #4
    Warrior
    I think all of us have those feelings of "I don't want to be here".....I mean who does?? We would all like to go back to a day where cancer was not something we thought about every day. But the warrior in you is the one who took you to that office, walked in, got hooked up and got through the treatment. The warrior is going through whatever you have to do to save your life and move on to a time where it doesn't revolve around cancer. The warrior in you will get you through this even if you don't feel like it every day. Congraulations for taking one more step!

    Chris
  • Christine Louise
    Christine Louise Member Posts: 426 Member
    #5
    I don't like the "you're so brave" thing that people say. Like, what choice do I have? Why do I have to be outstanding in some way? I'm just a regular person doin' what has to be done. Sometimes I cry and sometimes I sorta forget about bc. Sometimes I'm warrior, survivor, wonder woman role model and then I'm wimp baby. Whatevah.

    That's what's cool about this site -- you can be brave or wimpy and it's okay.

    $200!!!
  • jnl
    jnl Member Posts: 3,869 Member
    #6
    MyTurnNow said:

    You are a warrior right now
    You are a warrior right now and it sure took courage to go in there and do the chemo. So, you are already there. Keep scratching those tickets and let us know when you hit the jackpot. I quit a long time ago because if I win I buy more until I've lost everything. I'm not a gambler either!! Good luck Waffle!!

    What everyone wrote is
    What everyone wrote is right! You are a warrior now! Look at how hard you are fighting the beast and that you are winning! And, congrats on the lottery tickets. Wish I could win that much. LOL Good luck!

    Leeza
  • TraciInLA
    TraciInLA Member Posts: 1,994 Member
    #7
    Christine Louise said:

    I don't like the "you're so brave" thing that people say. Like, what choice do I have? Why do I have to be outstanding in some way? I'm just a regular person doin' what has to be done. Sometimes I cry and sometimes I sorta forget about bc. Sometimes I'm warrior, survivor, wonder woman role model and then I'm wimp baby. Whatevah.

    That's what's cool about this site -- you can be brave or wimpy and it's okay.

    $200!!!

    Can't run away from cancer, so you just do what has to be done
    While I find the term "survivor" very meaningful, I don't think I've ever felt like a "warrior" or a "fighter." I feel like Christine Louise when people tell me how brave I am -- what choice do I have? What am I going to do, just run away and hide in a forest, and hope the fairies come and take the cancer away?

    It didn't help that I felt SO passive during treatment -- you just lie there while they do biopsies and surgery, you just lie there while the 100th medical professional does your 500th breast exam, you just sit there while they pump chemo into you, you just lie there while they nuke you like a baked potato.

    The only time I feel like...not a "warrior," but at least like someone a little more in control, is when I work hard to focus on eating healthy and exercising -- I feel like at least that's something I can do to take some control over my health, and be as strong as I can be for whatever I have to face.

    Traci
  • KathiM
    KathiM Member Posts: 8,028 Member
    #8
    There are so many terms...
    Warrior. Survivor. Inspiration. Hero. This last one always sets me into a lecture....

    A hero is someone who has a choice on risking her life. If she does nothing, she remains safe. If she chooses to do battle, she is risking her life and is a hero. I did not have that choice with cancer. If I did nothing, I would lose my life. So, I am NOT a hero by my definition! Call me an inspiration, that is ok...but NOT a hero...I don't deserve the title!

    But, waffle, at some point you will probably will get mad. I sure did! How DARE this disease strike me not once but twice in rapid succession (stage III rectal, followed 6 months later by stage II breast). That is why now, 5 years later, I am thumbing my nose and living life as large as possible. I know I may do battle again with this beast, so I remain, to this moment, a warrior in pink!!!

    Hugs, Kathi
  • Megan M
    Megan M Member Posts: 3,000
    #9
    KathiM said:

    There are so many terms...
    Warrior. Survivor. Inspiration. Hero. This last one always sets me into a lecture....

    A hero is someone who has a choice on risking her life. If she does nothing, she remains safe. If she chooses to do battle, she is risking her life and is a hero. I did not have that choice with cancer. If I did nothing, I would lose my life. So, I am NOT a hero by my definition! Call me an inspiration, that is ok...but NOT a hero...I don't deserve the title!

    But, waffle, at some point you will probably will get mad. I sure did! How DARE this disease strike me not once but twice in rapid succession (stage III rectal, followed 6 months later by stage II breast). That is why now, 5 years later, I am thumbing my nose and living life as large as possible. I know I may do battle again with this beast, so I remain, to this moment, a warrior in pink!!!

    Hugs, Kathi

    I don't consider myself a
    I don't consider myself a warrior. I consider myself a survivor!

    Hugs, Megan

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