Jun 05, 2010 - 5:20 pm
I hate being so alone and the doctors telling me how thankful I should be, "to be alive." Noway! How is it a blessing to have my children see me suffer??? I can never uncerstand why this has happened to me, since their are others who have snoked for more than a decade. My children struggle with my condition, and deny that they are ashamed of me but you clearly can read through them and their actions. I try to accept this new condition but it is hard. I have a new way to shower, to cover the hole in my neck, and trying to get use to the humidifing machine at night. Not being able to lay on my stomach or go swimming with my children is hard for me.