Jun 04, 2010 - 8:01 am
I haven't posted anything for a while but have been reading the discussion boards on and off - I hope everyone is doing well.
I really need some advice and insight from some of your experiences. My problem right now is that I am becoming more and more disfunctional and I hate it. I have zero energy and I'm not really interested in doing much of anything. I don't enjoy being with my friends because I feel like we just don't have anything in common and I feel like their "ordinary, every day" problems are so NOT a big deal but I really don't want to be that person that minimizes everyone else's struggles. I pretty much only want to spend time with my kids but they are kids - I love them dearly but they just seem to need, need, need from me - as it should be! Nothing excessive - just normal stuff - but, as I said, I have no energy to get much done. I'm maintaining what has to be done but not much more than that. My house is a mess, I'm barely cooking, etc.
I keep thinking, why now?! I've spent so many years taking care of everyone and everything at home and then I took care of my husband through his illness and the kids and the house. I managed very well, kept stuff done, took care of everyone, cooked, etc., etc. Even through caregiving - I really kept up. Now - when I have plenty of time - my kids are older so it's not constant care as if they were little - I can't seem to get my butt off the couch! I could sleep at the drop of a hat.
Some people have said it's a sign of despression - maybe it is. I think I'll make a dr. appt. and see what he says. I guess my question is: has anyone else experienced this and is it normal? How long does this last? I'm really trying to overcome it and not give in to it. So, I really don't plan on giving in to it - I have no problem taking and antidepressant or something if that's what the doc. says.